Tuesday, May 29, 2012

My World

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Happy Birthday!
(sorry it's late)

the day you were born
I was still growing
inside my mother
but soon after
I also entered the world

we grew up
in different places
with different cultures
and yet some similar beliefs
and we learned about the world

one day
our paths intersected
and we met and became friends
and now we share a world
inside the world

there are many
parallels and similarities
in the paths we each travelled
and now that we share one
it seems a better world

and I am grateful
that you were born
to intersect my path
and teach me more than I would ever have known
if you hadn't come into the circle of my world.

Monday, May 28, 2012

Heat

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too hot 
to do much
of anything
but sit in the fan
and rest
keep yourself
hydrated
and 
lay your 
pounding head
still
it will feel better
soon

Headache

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resting eyes
and a head
pounding with pressure
from a change in
air
and climate
waiting for a storm
to break
the heat
and ease the pressure
letting up
on the strong vise
attached
to my head
take a deep breath
and endure!

Friday, May 25, 2012

TRY!

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fear
is 
debilitating
and 
time-wasting
set your sights
high
and BELIEVE
you can fly
then
even if only
baby steps
one at a time
TRY!

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Finding My Joy

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how do I find
the smile inside of me
the one that
grows
no matter
what life throws
the one that knows
exactly why
and how 
my soul flows

how deep 
inside myself
must I be
to understand
all that I need
to see
about
the joy and contentment
i bring to ME

by searching
experience
and choosing
to live
for everything
I am willing
to give
and all of the things
keeping my heart
active

I find
the smile
inside of me
I know 
how deep
 I have to be
and I 
that i AM
all and everything I need
inside of ME




Restless

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restless energy
rising up
inside me
decisions
about what to do
swirling 
mind unable to choose
I try to read
but cannot focus
I think about
writing
but cannot settle
my mind 
into a rhythm
I watch tv for awhile
it is not as much
amusement
as usual
I don't know
what to do with myself
thankfully
days like this 
are rare!

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Peace and Quiet!

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sitting today
working
on poetry
and blog posts
in silence
and 
thoroughly 
enjoying the peace
the quiet
is often
broken up
by the sound of
kitty upstairs
chasing her favourite
toy mouse
sometimes she is loud
but I still enjoy
the peace and quiet
no music
muted computer
no tv
nothing to spoil
my quiet afternoon
at all
alas
in just a few minutes
the kid returns from school
and with him
a cacophony
of laughter
yelling
video games
crunching and munching
and whatever other noises 
he will think to make
because he does NOT
enjoy the silence!

Desirable

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the spirited
goddess
of love and femininity
that resides on the inside
of you
is wonderful
and beautiful
and desirable
you must know it
before anyone else
can see it
and you must
feed the fire
inside
for YOU
are worth having!

Dream

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if you hide something
deep in your heart
a belief
in something you want
to achieve
something you
work towards having someday
we call it a dream
some may believe it is
only fancy
and will never come true
but it is important
to have a dream
and to follow it
all the way through!

a dream is also
something that happens
while you are sleeping
and can be
delightful
terrifying
or insightful
and one or all of these
can help you sort through
the thoughts and feelings
of your life

Delight

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something
that gives you
great pleasure
and joy
is a delight
to the heart
and the soul
and lifts your spirits
like the sun
shining on your face
or the first time
a baby giggles
or a soft sweet kitten
to cuddle

Friday, May 18, 2012

Childhood

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childhood
running outside
to dance in the rain
splashing in puddles
giggling
and laughing
as children do
mom and auntie
watching from the window
smiling at 
the exuberant antics
of childhood
warm summer air
rain showers
and puddles
bringing icky worms 
to the surface
and the smell of wet grass
and warm mud
in the air
coming in dirtier
than when we went out
and needing
a shower
to clean off the rainwater
and mud splatters
more work for mom
shampoo and soap
smelling clean again
loving
the spontaneous fun
and mess
laughter and joy
in the moments
of childhood

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Fidgety

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itchy
twitchy
fidgety
and jiggity

jumpity
bumpity
beginning a
grumpity

feeling
witchy
and
you know ;)

sleepytime
night night


Twitchy Legs

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hard to explain
this feeling
of twitchiness
yawning
sleepy
trying to finish 
jobs for today
body feeling
jangly
legs
getting twitchy
feet hot
and feeling itchy
it means
I need 
to go to SLEEP
and is most
aggravating

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Thank You

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thank you
for
being my friend
opening a doorway
showing me more 
than I have known before
offering your hand
in support and encouragement
nudging me
to step through the doorway
helping me find
my voice
giving me a space and a platform
to learn to speak it
listening
even when my voice shakes
but encouraging me
to continue
to be true
to myself and others
to learn
to grow
to open my heart
to give
and to offer my friendship
to them
thank you 
for knowing me
accepting me
loving me
and 
allowing me
to BE me


Monday, May 14, 2012

Giving Up

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stop
curl up in a ball
let nature take its course
give up 
fall down
stay there
fade into dust
so weak
frustrated
scared

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Mother

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there are no words
eloquent enough
or real enough 
to express the depth
of love
and gratitude
in my heart
that YOU
are my mother

there are no words
big enough
or important enough
to honour
your love for me
your patience
your sacrifices
and
support

thank you

Happy Mother's Day 
2012

The DEEP BLUE FUNK

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the
DEEP BLUE FUNK
is dancing 
on the outskirts
gunning for me
waiting with
dark intent
licking blood red lips
and laughing
fingers grasping
catching hold
dragging me down
tasting
delicious
doubts and fears
feeding on 
my worry and sorrows
waiting
knowing
if it drags me 
all the way down
it will be twice as hard
for me to climb
outside again
it is DEEP
not a pretty vibrant BLUE
but one of night
one of secret shadows
and darkness
and it is subtle in its FUNK
because it sneaks in
like a thief in the night
and unaware
you will realize one day 
you have already been 
swallowed whole
only to drift
unable to see
unable to change
unable to grow
stagnant
lost
unable to function
for real
lost in the dark
in the night of your own soul
unable to heal
unable to live
sometimes
it is even too hard
just to breath
BUT
one day
something NEW
and a LIGHT 
shines into your dark
it shows you the way
the light in your soul
is reborn
NOW
you must do
whatever it takes
to keep the light
of life and joy
burning
you must choose
LIFE
you must choose
LOVE
and you must do battle
with the DEEP BLUE FUNK



Friday, May 11, 2012

Don't Worry, Be Happy

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(love and miss you DAD xo)
what would you tell me
to do 
to get through this life

what would you say
to encourage me 
on this journey

i wish i still had
the benefit
of your knowledge and experience

i wish i had as much
fight and hope
and endurance for tomorrow

i am just trying
to get through today
with my spirit intact

i am not sorry
that i am here
and i hope that you never were either

where I am now
was just an accident of genetics
and not really anyone's fault

I am trying daily
to adopt a positive attitude
and follow your advice

because I finally DO 
understand
"don't worry, be happy"

I AM strong because of you
but there are times 
when I miss you so much 

it would be easier
if you were here with me
but somehow I will find my way

I will always be grateful
for the time
that I did get to share with you

Thursday, May 10, 2012

My Offer of Friendship

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I want
to touch
your heart
with my heart
when like meets like
and spark of
recognition

I want 
to touch
your hand
with my hand
knowing my touch of
warmth and compassion 
is welcome

I want 
to touch
your mind
with my mind
in an everlasting
and ever changing
dance of intellect

I want
to touch
your spirit
and energy
with the essence of me
and share the comfort
of friendship

I want
to touch
your face
with gentleness and love
so you will know
the depth of my feeling 
for you

I want
to hold you close
and shelter your hurt
with a warm hug
a pat on the back
and all the support
in my heart

I want
to touch
your SOUL
with all that is me
inside mine
so that you will KNOW
I am WITH YOU

This is 
the touch
of my heart
mind and soul
and the friendship
I will offer
to YOU

WELCOME



SLOW

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stress
worry
pressure
so many things
need doing
so many changes I face
I'm not 
DOING
enough
I am not
DOING
whatever it is 
I need to be doing
FAST ENOUGH
I feel like
a hamster on a treadmill
running in circles
forever
but going
nowhere
or if I am getting anywhere
it is so slow
the progress cannot even be seen
frustrated
just doesn't seem enough
word
to express

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

YOU are BEAUTIFUL!

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Erasure Poem Form. (Taken from original post: BEAUTY~09/08/2011 in I AM a QUEEN)

Are YOU aware
that you are beautiful?
Whether or not
you fit into
the world's standard

we all know
a beautiful woman
we feel inferior
and we just don't measure up
...if only

STOP!!
YOU are beautiful
just as you are!
all the wonderful,
positive things about you

your OWN distinct beauty
is all the love and acceptance
and compassion you hold for yourself
shine
and other people will see you as you truly are!

We are ALL beautiful
in our own way
Beauty IS deeper inside you
than can be seen
with only a set of eyes

so cherish well the people
who know the truth of YOUR beauty
for they are TREASURES
but, LEARN to see your own beauty
and cherish YOURSELF!



Breaking Down Walls

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Erasure poem form. (Taken from original post: The Power~03/13/2011 in the blog I AM LOVE)

the power
of a touch,
a smile,
a kind word,
a listening ear,
something you have said
or done
has made all the difference
some people build walls
to keep people out
sometimes they build walls
to see who cares enough
to get past them,
around them,
through them.

We should strive
to be people
who break down walls...
gently.

Saturday, May 5, 2012

Courage

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the quiet voice
inside
that says
yes you can
yes you should
STAND
whether you are 
afraid
or you are 
NOT
courage
is the ability
to
face everything
with strength
and 
fortitude

Inspiration

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Inspired by this painting:
Healing With Art


my heart
creates roots
deep in the fibre of me
like the root system
of a tree
and as I grow
stronger
older
wiser
my heart opens
wider
and I am willing
to reach towards
the sky
or new people
with ever more
buds and blooms
of heart flowers and
connections
and joy

Friday, May 4, 2012

Content

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be content
with all that you have
be satisfied
and accept
who and what you are
be grateful 
for the journey
and the lessons
in your life
and have
peace of mind

Confidence

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the quality
of being
certain
and sure
of yourself
and your 
abilities
ideas
beliefs
talents
to do
what it is
you want to do
and know that
you CAN

Choice

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having the ability
to weigh and measure
each option
presented in life
and
making your own
choice
is
right
and necessary
for ALL
yes or no
stay or go
to accept or not to
to change or not to
to learn or grow
or not to
it is always
your own
choice

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

I Believe

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I believe
that
I deserve
to be loved
and
I can give 
MY love
without FEAR
because I am worthy

I believe
that
whatever I WANT
to do
I CAN do
because
I am intelligent
and capable
and ABLE

I believe
that
I can
shine a light
in dark places
with my LOVE
with my HEART
with my SOUL
and that
I should

I believe
that everything
happens 
for a reason
to create a change
to teach a lesson
to help us grow

I believe
that
what is meant to be
will BE
will find its way
in its own right time
and fulfill a destiny

I believe
that people
come to you
for a moment
for a season
for a lifetime
for a purpose
and a meaning
in your life

I believe
that even the difficult people
can teach something
about life
about values
about respect
about love
or maybe the lack thereof
for themselves
and for you
and even
yours for yourself
LEARN

and
I believe
that you can be 
open for tomorrow
in your life 
and friendships
and let go
of yesterday
and of today
and not cling to
what has passed
if it is time to let go
LET GO

I believe
in LOVE
and loyalty
and to cherish
the people we love
for always
yet
sometimes
we do this 
by moving on 
and letting go
and it is
OK