Wednesday, November 28, 2012

My Gift to You

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it is small
and dainty
but made by my hands
crafted with all the love
in my heart
and given
with the spirit
of hope
that
everytime
you see it again
and hang it on your tree
you will be reminded
that you are
cherished
appreciated
and loved
my gift to you

Tree Lights

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how to express
the feeling
the joy
of tree lights
twinkling
red
blue
yellow
green
orange
shine
reflecting
in the glass
baubles
and ornaments
hanging
from the branches
beautiful angel
lit up inside
topping the tree
handmade love
and gifts
included
it brings me joy
and peace
and the willingness
to work harder
be more tired
and give more
LOVE

Monday, November 26, 2012

Socks

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socks in the 
laundry room
socks on the
floor
rolled up
in piles
in every corner
filling entire
clothes hampers
overflowing
onto the floor
mismatched
full of holes
woolly socks
sport socks
fancy socks too
and I HATE
to manage
this scary
sock affair
but I need
to purge
all the lonely
non-paired socks
to make room
for all the pairs!

Taking a Day

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taking a day
to decompress
from all the stress
and pressure
I put on myself
no crafts
no writing
(except for this poem)
no cleaning
no research
no work
(except the dishes)
(and laundry)
but instead
some chats
some fun 
conversations
and bits of time
with friends
made my heart lighter
and recharged
my drive
to get everything done

Colours of Christmas

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breathing in
the colours
and emotions
of Christmas
tree shining
and twinkling
with lights
in blue, red, yellow, orange and green
and shiny
ball ornaments
in purple, silver, red and blue
catching the lights
glass icicles and angels
sparkling in the branches
santas, balls, bells
and cute little critters
in all the vibrant colours
adorn the Christmas tree
and my heart
is full of all the
peace, love and hope
of the season
I LOVE it!

Friday, November 23, 2012

Embrace the Changes

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getting down to
the wire
coming to the end
but it is also
a beginning
to the next bend
in the road
the next project
every closed door behind
leads to an open door
forward
all that is left
is the willingness
and ability
to walk through it
and embrace
new challenges
embrace the changes

Chaos

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too much to do
swirling in my head
causing chaos
and stress
only a moment away
crochet gifts
decorate
sort financials
publish and post
my queen book
for sale
(with official ISBN)
do more research
mapping and planning
for my new book project
and get ready for 
annual
Christmas Dinner party
and even more than this
is on the list
swirling in my head
causing chaos
this is just my life
too many balls in the air

I have HOPE

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days full of stress
worry
visits to Drs.
social worker
and case worker
and eventually
the job is done
sent in the mail
and out of my hands
it is out in the universe
and I have hope
for better days 
around the corner
I have HOPE

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Excited

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excited
and can't wait
to put up my tree
it is almost here
my favourite
time of year
and this year
I'll hug my
baby girl
for the first time
in years
excited
and waiting
to finish
the presents
wrap them
and set them
under the tree
shiny new ornaments
twinkling lights
and a new kitten
experiencing
his first
Christmas tree
excited

Learning

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I am learning
to work within
the confines
of the life
that I am in
I am learning
to make peace
with the 
journey
I am learning 
to find
the strength
to face
every new day
I am learning
to believe
in myself
and I am learning
not to sweat 
the small stuff

Sunday, November 18, 2012

Crocheting for Christmas

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I am crocheting
gifts for Christmas
and as I crochet
I remember
the grandmother
who taught me to
crochet flowers
somewhere
locked away in a bin
is the bedspread she made me
crocheted by hand
made with love
all the more special
because I understood the WORK
she put into it
and somewhere a pillow
made by my own hand
to match
but more
the gift...
the GIFT
of not only a skill I could master
but a talent I could cherish
and for you, grandma
I am grateful

then I also remember
the other grandmother
my nanny
who always made us
socks and mittens
for Christmas
even while the arthritis
in her hands
made it difficult
and before she had to stop
she would knit
and I never could figure out how
to knit
but my mother knows
 I am struck
by the passage of time
and the loss 
of so much
and I wish
that my daughter
wanted to learn
to crochet
but maybe
just maybe
I will be the grandma
who teaches her own
grand daughter
to crochet flowers
or toys
or something else
I HOPE



Sleep and Dream

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restless sleep
riddled with dreams
strangeness
fighting
crochet
passion and pain
obvious stress
and worry
keeping my dream life
full and busy
and my sleep
from being complete
hot flashes
potty breaks
thirsty for water
cats causing ruckus
crashing and banging
waking me out of a dead sleep
and causing my nerve ends
to jangle
hope for better
and restful sleep
tonight

Getting Ready

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isn't it funny
having something
even a small thing
to give to my family
my children
my friends
even if just a beginning
settles my spirit
eases my mind
slows the beating 
of my heart
and brings
my soul peace
i may not be finished yet
but i have definitely
begun!
it may not be perfect
but I will be ready
for Christmas

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Stay in Bed

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I want to stay
cozy
curled up in my bed
warm
and safe
comfortable
dreaming 
sleeping
reading
cuddling a kitty
or a hubby ;)
lol
but
life awaits
so I begin anew

The Day

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it's a new day
closer and closer
to THE day
the day when 
all my work
all my effort
all my blood, sweat and tears
will PAY
will mean something
if only
that I finished
what I started
and it was
BIG

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Raina

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she is much
that she can't even see
there is power
in every fiber
of her being
there is compassion
love
hope
wisdom
courage
and so much more
she is only beginning
to scratch the surface
of her heart
of her mind
of her soul
of the power
inside of her
she is the hope of her world
and it's destiny
she is it's protector
it's angel
it's guardian
she is not the first
will likely not be the last
and even when she fears
what she must do
she will find her way
she will be 
the wise guardian 
of the way
and that is only 
one small part of
Raina



Characters

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you would think 
it would be easier
to name them
to find the titles
to find the 
"labels"
if you will
that only begin
to let you know
who they are
to invest
meaning
emotion
connection
a story
a person
into the letters
that give voice
to their spirit
for they do have a spirit
a vibe
a being
inside the creation
and I want to do them justice


Striving to Be ME

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is she me?
is she a
new version
a different
idea
all the dreams
and wishes
hopes and
desires
that I carry
in the deep
places
inside me
is she me?
of course she is
she is 
the hope
the dream
the best parts
of myself
she is
only some parts
of who I
strive to be
writing her
I honour ME

Obsessive

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why
must I
sink so deep
into the story
into the process
that I forget
to eat
to drink
and I get irritated
by the time it takes
to do that
and to have a 
potty break
or to have a wee break
why must I
be so obsessive
tenacious
like a dog with  a bone
who won't let go
until he is done
but
it is NEVER
done!!

Set Myself Free

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behind again!
my only excuse
is being busy
and distracted
by a whole new world
the characters
the story
the reasons why
their names
their back stories
and what is it
they are trying to say?
these are new characters
to me
but I have known many
through the years
and always been
reticent
about telling their stories
perhaps
it is just time
to set them
and myself
free

Thursday, November 8, 2012

Kitten

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psssssst
pffffff
grrrrrrrr
uggggghhh
baaaaahhhhhh
tzzzzzzzz
grrrrrrrrrr
you brat!
behave!
quit beating up the big girls
quit climbing up my furniture
stop biting on those cords
Good God
little fuzz!
I forgot how aggravating
such an adorable
and sweet little
HELLION kitten 
can be!!!!!!

Spirit and Intention

{Post: 312/365}
renewed spirit
and intention
for my dietary needs
I will attack it
till I kill it
and it will NOT
kill me
I will find the best
balance
I will find the right
combinations
and I will
get my attitude
in line with my needs
until I have
created
the easiest and best path
for me

Good Intentions

{Post: 311/365}
trying to
make a plan
and stick with it
follow my diet
don't eat the bad stuff
balance the good stuff
and stay on track
and as healthy as I can
but sometimes
life
blocks me and my
good intentions

Monday, November 5, 2012

Crunch and Munch

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hungry for days
and now
all I can do
is crunch
and munch
and feed
the voracious
appetite
empty belly
bred
while it waited
for yummies

Apples

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crunchy and crisp
juicy and sweet
baked in a pie
or with brown sugar,
nuts and raisins
wrapped up into
a pastry dumpling
and covered with
sweet sauce
but mostly
covered in chocolate
and also caramel
 one of my absolutely 
favourite treats
sliced or diced into a salad
or taken in hand
so many choices
and different flavours
of apples

Down

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down
and depressed
feeling the bluest
of the blue
dreading
freaking out
worrying
stressing myself out
trying not to
lay down and die
and give up
long before it is time
i have to climb up
again
climb out 
of the troubles I'm in
and find the strength
find the faith
to continue

Friday, November 2, 2012

Don't Know

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I
don't know
whether to
write
paint
make jewelry
draw
watch tv
play games
read a book
do some research
question my own self
or just go with the flow
of ME
and just BE
ME

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Change of Perspective

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purple sunshine
blue leaves
green skies
yellow bushes
orange rivers
red tree trunks
flip the vision
of the world you see
on its head
and create
whatever you want to see
sometimes a change
of perspective
is fun!