Thursday, June 28, 2012

You Have the Power

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are you awake
and aware
or are you
asleep
walking through life
chasing things to do
making memories that will last
your lifetime
are you numb
do you remember everything
with clarity and sentiment
or are many things 
lost to you
as soon as they are gone
slipping through your fingertips
lost in time
will you remember them later
did they matter so much
or is it really
the people
you remember most
do your days blend together
same and yet different
full of nothing special
but a fleeting moment 
now and then
when you catch a glimpse of more
and understand
there IS more
it can be different
are you content
or are you asleep
you have the power
to change
to choose
to see
wake up and use it!

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Flirty and Fun

{Post: 179/365}
fun
feather boas
hanging above my bed
passionate purple
and pretty in pink
they tickle
and itch
so I wonder
am I allergic?
or do I just not like
feathers
as much as I thought
I would
flirty and fun
and yet
I prefer
that they hang on the wall!

Tired of Tired

{Post: 178/365}
tired
and achy
no energy
light-headed
resting
but not sleeping
and tired
of being tired
today
perhaps
an early night
and good sleep
will help
tomorrow
will be
a better day

Monday, June 25, 2012

Miracle or Muse

{Post: 177/365}
even a muse
needs a miracle
I smile...
it is a 
circle
we complete
for each other
because
in order to be
a light
a strength
a mind
a heart
a voice
that people follow
and are inspired by
a miracle
needs a muse
to be
the inspiration
inspiring her 
to be
an inspiration
while she
inspires the muse
to be
an inspiration
and so they feed each other
and build stronger
dreams
aspire to reach
even higher goals
and
shine
brighter light
in the world
a Miracle needs a Muse
and even a Muse needs a Miracle
thank God for you
and the wider world I see
because of YOU


In the Quicksand

{Post: 176/365}
it is easy
to love
the lovable
if everyone
worked at 
being lovable
and loving 
there would be
no need for
jealousy
competition
hurt
or having to choose
to let go
and walk away
from people
who choose 
a lesser path
it is a flaw in me
that I walk away
instead of choosing
to stay
i am not strong enough
to teach
or patient enough 
to wait
for their learning
some people 
just
WON'T
learn
staying
brings me down
to their level
rather than
them coming up to mine
and I just don't
like myself
when that happens
 I'm learning to let go
so that I won't drown
in the quicksand
with them
and yet I hope
someday
they will see

Cherry

{Post: 175/365}
beautiful
red
sweet
juicy
berry
take a bite
mouth full 
of
juicy sweetness
and pit
spit it out
and enjoy
the flavour
of sweet
cherry treat
but don't eat
too many
if you are watching
your potassium!

A Story

{Post: 174/365}
working
on a story
hoping
for brilliance
or at the very least
a following
because 
I found
the words to evoke
joy and understanding
commiseration
irritation for the evil
belief that good and peace
win in the end
but most I hope
I have the spirit, heart and words 
to do the story
justice

Thursday, June 21, 2012

Morten's Poem

{Post: 173/365}
morten
a friendly
and funny guy
from Denmark
appreciates poetry
and travel
loves being
the cool uncle
and being up late
drunk
instead of sleeping
waiting for
the best impromptu poem
in the world!


(don't take this seriously people...
I wrote it on the fly just to get a smile from my friend!) ;) lol

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Sparkle and Shine

{Post: 172/365}
sparkle and shine
like the diamond you are
dance in the sunshine
dance in the rain
raise your arms
raise your eyes
raise your voice
open your heart
fill your soul
with joy
with bliss
with peace
sing in the shower
sing on the street
smile at everyone
don't be afraid
to GIVE
everything you are
inside yourself
you will always find
MORE
be yourself
and 
sparkle and shine
like the diamond you are

Low

{Post: 171/365}
why is it so hard
to find a positive
head space
when your body is
aching with pains
and your heart 
full of fear
that
a simple thing
like a little bit 
of extra heat
could be 
all the difference
between
sickness
and balance
I want to
think positive
but I hurt
and when I hurt
I SINK
so low 
...
so LOW

Heatwave

{Post: 170/365}
heat
breaking me down
too much
too long
head dizzy
too hot
sitting in the living room
with hubby
in a cool
but damp room
and the temperature
difference
caused shivers
needed a blanket
dehydrated
and foot started hurting
knee joints hurting
kidneys aching
and then 
on top of all that
my lungs are beginning to feel
congested
oh great!
after NOT having a cold 
for  months
I'm gonna get a doozy
I NEED
the heatwave to break
I need
NORMAL
because THIS
is NOT fun!!!

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Dance

{Post: 169/365}
dance
like no one
is watching
raise your arms
twist and shake
express the joy
and movement
giggle
have fun with it
feel the rhythm
of music
and 
your soul
together 
as one
breathe in music
breathe out dance
live
love
dance for joy

Monday, June 18, 2012

Love Warrior

{Post: 168/365}
a warrior
is anyone who fights
for something
and becomes adept 
at the battle
so a warrior of love
battles to teach
LOVE
sometimes
I believe 
it can be more
a battle with yourself
than anyone else
when choosing to love
the irascible
and foul
the angry
and bitter
the miserable
and lost
and yet
to be a warrior 
is to battle on
and continue
teaching LOVE


Warrior

{Post: 167/365}
one
who is engaged in
and experienced
in warfare and battle
energetically
or aggressively
involved in conflict

one 
who is 
the first or last line 
of defense
for his community
and country
for his home

one 
who battles
and fights
for the defense
and the honour
of his loved ones

one 
who becomes adept
and entrenched
in a life
of battle and bravery
and riddled with scars 
both visible and NOT

one
who has
earned and deserves
to be honoured
and respected
for his courage
and for his service




Thursday, June 14, 2012

Restless

{Post: 166/365}
what can be done
about this feeling
inside me
no explanation
no solution
just a restless
wanting
of something
but what?
perhaps a miracle
perhaps
just
something
new
perhaps
some change
some open door
to a new frontier
perhaps
I just need
to choose
to decide
and to focus
on ONE thing
and follow it through

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

A Moment

{Post: 165/365}
there is a moment
sometimes fleeting
when I feel
the connection
of your soul to mine
your heart to mine
and our minds
on the same page
if I wasn't waiting
for that moment
and hoping
for it
I might miss it
and NOT feel 
the beginning
of our strong connection
of the friendship we are building
of the treasure we are sharing
and THAT would be a shame
because
in that moment
your love and admiration
and openness to me 
makes my soul
DANCE

The Surface

{Post: 164/365}
what is the surface
but window dressing
for the soul

it is connection I seek
from the inside
of you

to the inside of me
from the soul knowing
that we are meant to be

something special
to one another
underneath

the window dressing
that only shows
glimmers and shadows

of reality
of who we are
you and I

in the knowing
of the soul
we are more

to each other
than just
what appears in the surface

glimmers and shadows
of our true being
of our souls

which are connected
in a powerful
and meaningful way

which are well met
and become
stronger and more

than they ever were
before we began
to learn

about the deep
inner world
underneath

the window dressing
and masks
that are just for show

I Believe

{Post: 163/365}
I believe 
in magic

I believe
that it lives
deep inside of me

I believe
if I knew how
I could open it up 
and watch it blossom

I believe
there is magic
inside each of us
every one of us
could bloom like a flower

I believe
if we search
inside the inner rooms
of our hearts and souls
and open the hidden door
magic would flow forth

I believe
if I could find
inside myself
this inner wellspring of magic
I could never empty it again
because it is found and not lost
it has been opened and cannot be closed

I believe
I can express
love and magic
with every beat of my heart
forever and always
if only I can
dig deep enough into myself
to open the floodgate

I AM...a WOLF

{Post: 162/365}
I am
affectionate
with friends and family

I am 
family
social order
community

I am 
non-confrontational
but FIERCELY defend my family
when necessary

I am
verbally
and non-verbally
expressive

I am
an animated
sincere and
passionate 
storyteller

I am
a natural born teacher
I teach from
experience

I am
at ease
with family and friends
who know me
but with all else
quite shy

I am
the spirit of a
WOLF

Saturday, June 9, 2012

Oliver & Vincenzo

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yesterday
and again today
we saw two 
beautiful kittens
at the pet store
(shelter cats)

they looked
just like
Oliver
and
Vincenzo
both lost to us now

Oliver
was also a shelter cat
we CHOSE
and loved
for a SHORT time
he was ill

he was 
the sweetest boy
for seven weeks
he cuddled
and loved
and was loved so much

he'd wait at the door
for me to come home
when I sat
he became
my warm ollar collar
(sleeping on the back of my neck)

he was the sweetest boy
and even Pester
our big kitty
who didn't like anybody
was sweet to Ollie 
and played with him

until the day or two before
when he went the long way around
to stay far and clear
and looking back
we could see
that he knew

Oliver was sick
and while he didn't get to stay
he did have the benefit
of all our love
for his last days
and we do not regret

he was precious to me for more
than just being a new kitten
he was a symbol
of something I believed
he was a living, breathing testament
to a story 

a story
that lives and breathes
inside of me
when we chose him
I knew I would call him
Oliver

and when the lady at the shelter
said he had a name 
but we could change it
if we wanted to
we asked his name...
it was OLIVER

how strange the world
that leads you 
in small ways
with small touches
to the open doorway
of your destiny

if only 
you will open your eyes and see!
there is a kitten
in my mind's eye
and he belongs in a story
I will write

his name
was
is
and always will be
OLIVER
is this NOT a sign?

after he was lost to us
we went to the pet store
and found
Vincenzo
who looked very much the same
but his personality was not

he was feisty
and fun
he liked to climb
on the top of my son's toy castle wall
so i giggled and called him
Vinnie, the KING of the castle

and then one day
he snuck out of the house
and didn't come back home
we were sad
and missed them both
but life goes on

what Ollie meant to me
is deeper
than a kitten we only cherished
for seven weeks
he is a symbol
of a direction I was meant to take

because it matters
so much to me
I had his name tattooed
on the back of my neck
to remind me...to remind me
have faith in your dreams

it has taken me 
such a long time
but today
and yesterday
I was nudged and reminded
to follow my dreams

and I hope once and for all
that I will find
the courage I need
to do that...to dream
and to chase them 
till I can't chase them anymore



Oliver




Friday, June 8, 2012

Music

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music
fills my heart
and soul
with joy
exuberance
and energy
and makes me
want to dance
or at least
tap my foot
it makes me 
smile
 giggle
and laugh 
it soothes
my wounded spirit
it gives me hope
and feeds
my needs
if dance is
poetry in motion
then music is
the spirit of sound
and it is 
language in love

Thursday, June 7, 2012

I AM...a BEAR

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I am
assertive
confident
strong

I am
a powerful healer

I am 
reclusive
in order to be
creative

I am
quiet
in winter
and crave solitude
(hibernation)

I am
ready
in springtime
and open to action

I am
independent
and strong

I am
a survivor

I AM
grizzly bear
SPIRIT

Be Willing

{Post: 158/365}
Originally written in a blog for my children.

Be Willing
to try
to let go
to risk
to grow
to be open
to trust
to love
to lose
to fight
to move on
to change
to hope
to believe
to work
to give
to receive
to LIVE
to BE HAPPY

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

I AM Something

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once
a boy who didn't get
what  he wanted
told me 
"You think you're something?
YOU are nothing!"
because
I didn't bow down to him
or kneel at his feet
in supplication
or defeat
instead
I stood
for myself
and I am HAPPY
that I did
because the TRUTH
of the matter is this:
I AM SOMETHING
and 
I AM SOMEONE
worthy of being treated with
decency
and respect
worthy of being
honoured
and cherished
WORTHY
of whomever and whatever I want
if THEY don't see it
or understand it
is NOT my problem
I AM
SOMETHING
and I will NOT forget


Inside of YOU

{Post: 156/365}
FIND
the power 
inside of YOU

FIND
beauty
inside of YOU

FIND
joy
inside of YOU

FIND 
the strength
inside of YOU

FIND
talent
inside of YOU

FIND
abilities
inside of YOU

FIND 
accomplishment
inside of YOU

FIND
love 
inside of YOU

FIND
compassion 
inside of YOU

FIND 
approval
inside of YOU

FIND
forgiveness
inside of YOU

FIND
intelligence
inside of YOU

FIND
reason 
inside of YOU

FIND
faith
inside of YOU

FIND
the queen
inside of YOU

FIND
the goddess
inside of YOU

FIND
the angel
inside of YOU

FIND
the unbreakable spirit
inside of YOU

FIND
your voice
inside of YOU

FIND
everything you truly NEED
inside of YOU

You

{Post: 155/365}
it breaks my heart
watching you
search
high and low
in ever other person
for approval
for acceptance
for love
only because
I have come to know
and understand
throughout my own
journey
that all of that
comes from inside
YOU

Brain on Fire

{Post: 154/365}
when I get
an idea
and then begin
I am on a mission
to finish
what I started
no matter 
how long it takes
but then
brain on fire
driven forward
toward completion
all else
falls by the wayside
and I get behind
I am 
out of balance
I wish I knew
how to
temper
the brain on fire
in me
alas
my creativity
bursts forward
like flames given oxygen
and all I know
is that when i'm done
I'm DONE
until creativity
sets my brain
on fire again!
strange cycle!

Friday, June 1, 2012

It's Love

{Post: 153/365}
in the eye 
of my dream
I remember
your look
and the feel
of your power
wind beneath
mighty wings
flames
scorching
burning
melting
everything in their path
smoke billowing
from nostrils flared
a hiss of satisfaction
from a creature
born to burn worlds
cowering on the earth
far beneath your flight
kneeling in terror
but gazing in awe
and amazement
at the colours and hues
of your scales
sparkling in the sunshine
dancing, shining
dragon
master of my soul
I do not welcome
death at the flame of your breath
but neither will I shy away
from the moment
to gaze in wonder
at your beauty
such as it is
wondrous dragon
I offer my heart to you
grateful 
for the power
of a dream

Sometimes

{Post: 152/365}
sometimes
when you
tell me a story
I listen
and I learn
what the story
means to you
and sometimes
I am given a glimpse
of something deeper
something that was NOT said
but is also
very important
and sometimes in this way
I KNOW and FEEL
the deeper insides of you
and then I can give you
something you needed
that you didn't even ask for
or KNOW that you needed
sometimes
I can reach into the darkness of you
shine a light
and heal a broken, hurt place
and all I want to say
so that you know is...
I HEAR you!

I Wish to BE

{Post: 151/365}
I wish to be
a ray of sunshine
to brighten your day

I wish to be
the light
that shines into darkness

I wish to be
a smile on your lips
and a lift to your heart

I wish to be
a warm hug
of love and compassion

I wish to be
a sweet friend
you wish never to do without!

;)

What Is Joy?

{Post: 150/365}
the expression
of a deep emotion
full of
pleasure
and exultant
happiness
with
SOMETHING

for me it was:
the moment I held my children
for the first time
and the moments
of all their firsts
words, smiles, steps, giggles
and the first time
I managed to handle
both feet and both hands
involved in the rhythm
of drumming!
and the moment 
I met my husband
and KNEW
that he was MINE
always, for the long haul
and always
when I find
a rhythm and a flow
with words
in poetry
or another writing
and FEEL its goodness
and EVERY time
I look at my FIRST tattoo
but ALL of them too
and I KNOW
that the expression
of MYSELF
IS
JOY!!!