I Will NOT Beg

{Post: 283/365}

I am NOT

going to beg

if the universe

is really

in alignment

with what I need

then

what will be will be

I will receive the call

I will receive the help

I will lose the stress

and life will stop

being such a huge

struggle

and disappointment

to me

I NEED help

but I will NOT beg

I leave it to be what it will

Letting Go

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it couldn't be

clearer

to me

that I worry

and stress

for nothing

and that it is

just another way

in which

I punish myself

for what?

for having a heart

for caring about someone

more than they ever could 

care for me

for being willing

to open my heart

and give it

for being willing to give

and accommodate

and love

with everything that I am

that is neither a fault

nor a failing

and I am not sorry for offering it

that you do not appreciate 

the gift that is ME

is ALL on YOU

I say no more

and I will 

teach my heart

to follow

what my head

already knows

and I will

let GO

In the Quicksand

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it is easy

to love

the lovable

if everyone

worked at 

being lovable

and loving 

there would be

no need for

jealousy

competition

hurt

or having to choose

to let go

and walk away

from people

who choose 

a lesser path

it is a flaw in me

that I walk away

instead of choosing

to stay

i am not strong enough

to teach

or patient enough 

to wait

for their learning

some people 

just

WON'T

learn

staying

brings me down

to their level

rather than

them coming up to mine

and I just don't

like myself

when that happens

 I'm learning to let go

so that I won't drown

in the quicksand

with them

and yet I hope

someday

they will see