Jan. 5, 2014

A few days ago my friend asked the question Who are YOU? in his status message and I replied:
a cinnamon candy heart :p lol because I was being silly and wanted a laugh ;)
however the answer to this question is not really that simple because I am many, many things.
So I decided to write a poem about it and it can be found HERE.

Jan. 1, 2014

It is a brand new year! Happy New Year to you!
I would like to continue 365 posts but I have found that I am NOT very good at staying regular with that so instead I suggest that I WILL try to continue in this blog with sharing new writing posts from here, there and everywhere that I write, blog or share on the web.
Hopefully, I can share a whole years worth this way but if not at least I can try to be regular!

I begin with a list of goals for 2014:

• write something...DAILY
• work on my book series
• work on a PKD book
• write children's books
• work on fixing parts of the house that need fixing
• try to manage my health better
• try to remember all that I AM...

Gratitude: 311

{Post: 311/365}

Today i am grateful for:

I AM

powerful

belief

and then...

reality

I AM...BEAUTIFUL

{Post: 363/365}

I am...

beautiful

not because of 

the package I come in

or the colour of my skin

not because

my eyes are pretty

or the length of my hair

not because I am

or am NOT 

a perfect shape or figure

but because

of my spirit

my heart

my mind

my soul

all that I am

and all that I carry 

within myself

all that I have

to offer to the world

all that I give

all that I believe

all that I share

all that I create

all that I imagine

all that I am

and I am...

BEAUTIFUL

Thank You

{Post: 345/365}

thank you

for

reminding me

that I am

loved

that I am

enough

that I CAN

that I am

wonderful

that I am 

beautiful

and that I

deserve

every one

of my dreams

to come true

More

{Post: 344/365]

I don't think

you know

how much 

I hold back

of my intensity

of my intentions

of my emotion

of my love

even within moments

of meeting

for the first time

I don't think

you know

how much

I have to

bite my own tongue

tame the wild beast

that is my heart

hold back my soul

in reserve

even within months

of meeting

and becoming friends

I don't think

you know

how much

MORE

of that intensity

of that depth

of that fire in my heart 

that frightens you

even after 

you DO 

get to know me

there is.

so much MORE.

I AM...LIFE

{Post: 242/365}

the breath 

of life

flowing through

the blood in my veins

beating in every thump

and bump

of my heart

shining

throughout

every thought

in the mind

and my creative

process

drawn through

every breath

I take

expressed

through the joy

in my laughter

and the sweetness

and light

in my soul

I am LIFE

I AM...HERE

{Post: 241/365}

HERE

breathing in

deeply

the scents

and aromas

of life

flowers

green growing things

rain showers

the smell

of roast chicken 

in the oven

steaming coffee

in my cup

sizzling bacon

in the pan

the smell of lilacs 

on the breeze

all these

and many more

tickle my nose

and my soul

I AM...HERE

I AM...

{Post: 221/365} 

strong

vibrant

alive

a survivor

fun

bright

thoughtful

funny

interesting

comfortable

warm

intelligent

passionate

compassionate

hopeful

a fighter

and a lover

and SO much more

than you could ever see

or understand

just by looking at the surface

by judging the package I come in

the shape of my body

the colour of my eyes

the length of my hair

I CHOOSE

to see and know

the positive

pieces of me

and to learn

to accept them

and know the TRUTH

of myself

because THEN

I will be able to love YOU

and I AM

LOVE!

I AM...a FOX

{Post: 220/365}

I am

a night person

productive and creative

while others sleep

I am

an observer

watching

noticing what is said

and what is NOT

I am

a nurturing

protective

and conscientious

parent

I am 

capable

of blending in

and becoming nearly invisible

and unrecognizable

I am

sometimes

surprisingly

the bearer of obscure

and creative solutions

I am

the spirit

of the FOX

I AM...a DUCK

{Post: 216/365}

I am

a homebody

with a strong

nesting instinct

I am

generous

with a big heart

I enjoy

the company

of  others

especially of like mind

and spirit

I am

amiable

accessible

and emotionally

expressive

I am resilient

I bounce back

I am

the spirit of

a DUCK

I AM...a WOLF

{Post: 162/365}

I am

affectionate

with friends and family

I am 

family

social order

community

I am 

non-confrontational

but FIERCELY defend my family

when necessary

I am

verbally

and non-verbally

expressive

I am

an animated

sincere and

passionate 

storyteller

I am

a natural born teacher

I teach from

experience

I am

at ease

with family and friends

who know me

but with all else

quite shy

I am

the spirit of a

WOLF

I AM...a BEAR

{Post: 159/365}

I am

assertive

confident

strong

I am

a powerful healer

I am 

reclusive

in order to be

creative

I am

quiet

in winter

and crave solitude

(hibernation)

I am

ready

in springtime

and open to action

I am

independent

and strong

I am

a survivor

I AM

grizzly bear

SPIRIT

I AM Something

{Post: 157/365}

once

a boy who didn't get

what  he wanted

told me 

"You think you're something?

YOU are nothing!"

because

I didn't bow down to him

or kneel at his feet

in supplication

or defeat

instead

I stood

for myself

and I am HAPPY

that I did

because the TRUTH

of the matter is this:

I AM SOMETHING

and 

I AM SOMEONE

worthy of being treated with

decency

and respect

worthy of being

honoured

and cherished

WORTHY

of whomever and whatever I want

if THEY don't see it

or understand it

is NOT my problem

I AM

SOMETHING

and I will NOT forget

Reading

{Post: 101/365}

once in awhile

I like to

take a break

from the insanity

running inside my head

and I will

spend the day

in bed

reading books

taking breaks 

to eat

and you know...

and possibly make myself

a cup of tea

but quickly get back to

the story

that has given me

a short escape

from my own reality

and a peek

into a different world

for awhile

Purple

{Post: 90/365}

purple

is a woman

of strength

and dignity

respectful

and kind

a queen

in her own life

responsible

and in control

of her own happiness

Mojirayo

{Post: 30/365}

what is a name

but a reflection

and part of who we are

a name means something

to the namer

and to the named

I am touched 

every time

you say Mojirayo

because 

it feels like

you see me

and understand

who I am

sometimes 

even more 

than I do myself

"I awoke to see joy"

is an acknowledgement

of my heart

and soul

mind

and 

purpose

for 

hoping

living

loving

shining

and even when

I feel sad

the name you have given me

reminds me

to lift myself up 

and FIND joy

to wake myself up

and SEE joy

EVERY DAY

to live my life

and BE joy

ALWAYS

thank you

What Am I?

{Post 81/365: Original Post:(Jan. 7, 2009) SoulSongs}
New
Unblemished
Wide eyed innocence.


I love
I offer my heart
My soul
My All
I am broken.

I choose
A life of pain
A punishment
For believing I am worthy.
I am unloved.

I am
Beaten down
Shattered
Like glass.
I am broken.

I am used.
I am abused.
I cannot find the light
Inside myself
I am lost.

I bring new life
Into the world
Not one
But two
I am responsible.

I must choose
Better
I must choose
Right
I am a mother.

I find
A spark of light
Inside myself
and stand.
I am courageous.

I cry a lot
I doubt myself
I am afraid
and yet I try
I am tenacious.

I find a hope
Inside myself
For something more
A new beginning.
I am healing.

I take a journey
I learn
I grow
I understand
I am a woman.

I lay the past
To rest
and walk toward
A future
I am faith.

I hope and dream
I wait and wait
and want
and I believe
I am ready.

I meet a man 
Who fills my soul
My heart
With faith and trust
I am loved.

He retrieves the pieces
of my broken heart
and fits them
back together
I am mended.

A new joy begins
Making family complete
But instead
A loss so deep
I am sorrow.

And once more
Inside myself
No hope no reason
No desire
I am lost.

Somehow again
I face forward
I start anew
I have purpose again
I am mom.

Slowly they begin
To drift into
Lives of independence
and my purpose becomes hazy
I am confused.

Now deeper
Than ever before
I am sinking into
Despair.
I am the deep BLUE funk.


I need something more
I need a purpose
I wallow in
Self-pity
I am aware.

Then by fate
Or destiny
I find another piece of myself
A joy, a shining light
I am awake.

I must find
Another purpose
I must find a new reason
Stay up and stay awake
I am rising.

I hunt
for what I do not know
And then I find
The center of myself.
I am found.

Then I learn
That I am more
Than I ever knew I was
To many and in truth
I am beauty.

In learning Who I am
I have also come to understand
I deserve everything
I am worthy and
I am LOVE.

I need not be ashamed
Of who I am
Or apologize
For what I believe.
I am a queen.

©2009 KD Bissonette