Halloween

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ghosts and ghouls

vampires

and frankenstein

monsters

trick or treat

bags of candies

parties

dress up

bobbing for apples

haunted houses

spooky soundtracks

smoke and mirrors

blood and gore

slasher movies

psycho killers

horror and more

these are the things

Halloween

brings to my mind

Happy Halloween all!

Stay safe!

My HOPE

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I found this poem in one of my stacks of papers. I don't remember when I wrote it but I would like to share it now.

once upon a moment

I carried a dream

in my womb

he touched my heart

for only a moment

but I have not

forgotten

I will never forget

he wasn't mine to keep

but he was, IS

and always will be

a cherished moment

of HOPE

Naptime

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cuddling

with Boo 

the sleepy kitty

reminds me

that I am sleepy also

and I would enjoy

a nap

Angel LOVE

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when I create

an angel for you

whether it is a pendant

on a chain

an ornament

for your Christmas tree

or just a token of love

for your pocket

I am thinking of YOU

I am thinking of

your favourite colour

whether or not

you believe in angels

of how deeply

connected we are

how much love I have for you

how huge my wish for 

love and peace

and angel protection

is for you

and that my creation

will be filled

with all that emotion

and love

and every time

you wear it

or see it

or touch it

you will think of me

and know

LOVE

Handmade Gifts

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the countdown

has begun

I have no time

so TODAY

is making a plan

for Christmas

day!

bust out

the creative bomb

and MAKE

some pretty

and useful

gifts

for my friends

and family

and hope

that it really is true

handmade gifts

are better

because they are

made with love

and a portion of my time

I AM thinking of YOU 

when I choose

a pattern

an idea

a statement

and every time

I also give 

a piece of myself

and the flow of my love

Restless

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(OMG! Only 65 posts left and we're onto another 365 days!! WooHoo!!! I've posted 300 poems!!!)

I do not

know what to do

with myself

I don't know

which way to turn

or what to do next

so many things

rise to the surface

so many ideas

brimming

so many thoughts

doubts, fears

so many choices

and I can't decide

which is the WAY

which way to go

which idea to

energize

I am just

restless

Complacent

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I don't know

what to do

about this

and that

and the other thing

it is easy to say

change your life

and some say

also

easy to do

but I can't see how

what the what

there are only some things 

that I CAN do

and sometimes

I honestly

don't WANT to

I don't hate my life

maybe I've just

been stuck 

in the same place

for so long that 

I can't see the path

maybe I am

complacent

Waiting

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waiting

and being patient

is not my 

strong suit

it leaves me

too much time

to let my mind

wander

and suppose

and come up with

all the horrible

things that could 

go wrong

be time already!!

Halloween Party

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it's almost time

to dress up

in costume

whether goofy,

frightening and creepy

or just plain cute

and have the 

best costume contest

at our annual party

and guess the number

of Halloween candies

gift pail

time to drink

listen to "Halloween" music

my fave always:

The Hall of the Mountain King

and eat disgustingly

creepy treats

like:

Bloody Bug Juice

Creepy Mummy Dogs

Roasted Alien Fingers

Caterpillar Kebobs

Puking Pumpkin Dip

Rat Cheese Spread

and

enjoying

laughter, food and fun

with our friends

I can't wait!

Angel With An Edge

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when I began

I could hardly believe

the possibility

or the existence of

earth angels

which are simply

people with

deep love and compassion

who bring light

and healing

to others

throughout their lives

friends often tell them

"you're an angel"

but of course

we don't really believe that

even if we are flattered

and sometimes even frustrated by it

but I have learned

to embrace

the truths and the lessons

I have begun to understand

it has made clear

many things about myself

that felt so different

and I am still

but now

I'm not afraid to be ME

I'm not afraid to love

I CAN and DO

shine a light into the darkness

for many

encourage and support

and even inspire

and I AM human

so I am NOT pristinely pure

but I AM

an angel

maybe just...

an angel with an edge

I Want to Share

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what is the truth

of healing

dare I hope

for an ending

far different

than the one 

I expect

is there another path

is there another choice

or is this it

the journey I must take

the lessons I will learn

the pain I will endure

the fear I will face

the time I may waste

or do I just 

use as much of this time

as I can

to leave something behind

to share what I have learned

to build a bridge for those

who follow behind

and share my fate

share my journey

I don't know the answers

to many of the questions

but I want to share

whatever I can

while I can

I Embrace Chaos

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I am learning

various things

about myself

many of the things

I am NOT

as well as 

many things

that I AM

one thing 

I have learned

is that I

am very poor

at following

a schedule

I am afraid

that I embrace

chaos

even though

it also drives me

insane

I have learned

that no matter 

how hard I try

I cannot stand

to do the same thing

to wear the same thing

to eat the same thing

day in 

and day out

I MUST

have variety

I MUST

have differences

of taste and flavour

of ideas and opinions

of colours and greys

and that my mind

cannot be bored

by the same dreary story

every day

but needs engagement

with something

NEW and BRIGHT

and diverse

and this is how I GROW

I Will Fight

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what will 

tomorrow bring

but more

stress, worry

and fear

I don't believe

I am strong enough

not to fear

not to doubt

not to wail and moan

and cry in misery

and sorrow

for my plight

and yet I know

that I will take a breath

and another

and I will

survive

each moment

as I am faced with them

I know

that I will fight

in the ways that I know

in the ways that I have

and I may yet learn

new ways as well

i will learn

not to worry the tomorrows

but to cherish

TODAY

and to follow the path

wherever it may lead

trusting the journey

trusting that I will be cared for

in ways I can't even imagine yet

not only will I LEARN

but I will leave bridges behind me

Balance

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looking for

balance

in my life

between

needed exercise

my health

a restricted 

and boring diet

and time

to do the things 

i want to do

to read

to write

to travel

to meet 

and spend time 

with friends

I keep trying

to find

the perfect balance

I Want to Fight

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today

I want to fight

I want to

be strong

have faith

move forward

and 

embrace change

but 

sometimes

I still get

swallowed

in the darkness

of my life

depression

sorrow

no hope

I need

inspiration

I need 

encouragement

too

but not today

today

I want to

FIGHT

Finding the Way

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finding

my path

finding 

the next bend

in the road

learning

to face it

and embrace it

instead of

freaking out

running for the hills

hiding from the truth

owning my space

sharing my voice

shining my light

growing

into my soul

The Best Poem

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sometimes

the best poem

flows in words

like water

unbidden

no knowledge

beforehand

of the language

or feelings 

to be expressed

it requests

to be written

or spoken

and then it is

what was before

just a fleeting

moment

or the flicker of an

idea

becomes

a soft spoken whisper

of poetry

and a soul message

Deeper Levels

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there are places

inside me

I don't want

to see

to know

to understand

and yet

new doors

open inside me

constantly

sometimes I close them

immediately

and sometimes

I stand looking

into the abyss

not ready to enter

and still other times

I know

that deep inside myself

is only myself

I will not destroy

me

I will only find

a deeper level

another facet

MORE

of myself

sometime soon

I will embrace

my own deeper levels

and then I will come into ME

and I will BE

HOPE

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I have discovered

something

it is small

sometimes

so small that

it seems to 

disappear

and yet

I cannot escape it

it is inside me

deep inside me

this abiding

thing

small

and unnoticeable

but strong

really

unbreakable

just a seed

when nourished

can blossom

into something

unshakable

and fierce

no matter how small

I believe

it is 

my

HOPE

A Purpose

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just another

new idea

percolating

in the chaos

of my mind

what am I fighting for

to share

to build a bridge

to carve a path

to make the way

easier

for those who come 

behind me

I hope my lessons

will be found

VALID

and will pave

an easier path ahead

it is a purpose

BooBoo

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such a little

sweet pea

adorable

cuddly

fiesty and fun

exploring the world

and facing

the big kitties

even though

they are cranky girls

and keep hissing at you!

soon enough 

they will come around

and life will feel

like you have been a part of it

always

sweet little buddy

our BooBoo

What Will Be, Will Be

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through

darker times than these

I have survived

and I refuse

to give up

even if every day

is a struggle

i will continue on

tomorrow

may be a brighter day

and I will strive

to meet it

what will be, will be

I Will NOT Beg

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I am NOT

going to beg

if the universe

is really

in alignment

with what I need

then

what will be will be

I will receive the call

I will receive the help

I will lose the stress

and life will stop

being such a huge

struggle

and disappointment

to me

I NEED help

but I will NOT beg

I leave it to be what it will

If Only in Spirit

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if only in spirit

I know

that you lift

my eyes

to seek

higher goals

and a more

meaningful

purpose

you cannot 

lift your hand 

to wipe away

my tears

but if you could

you would

you hope and dream

for my goals to be

met and reached

just as much as

your own

if only in spirit

I know

there is a deeper

and stronger

reason

that we are connected

that we compliment each other

and only become

better

and stronger

and wiser

with each hurdle in life

that we share

and I am grateful

for YOU

I thank GOD

for you

and if only in spirit

I know

that IS friendship

that IS love

and that you will always be

the mirror through which

I see myself

BEST

Thank You

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I am

grateful

for you

the one who

brings light into the dark corners

the one who

brings laughter to my heart

the one who 

engages my mind

the one who

reminds me

of my own beauty

and power

the one who

allows me to shine

the one who

sparks joy in my soul

the one who

asks my spirit to dance

the one who

shows me reflections

of myself

the one who

helps me to grow

stronger every day

thank you

for being you

and for loving 

ME

Angel Baby

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stress and worry

for an entire 

pregnancy

and then

the birth

of an angel baby

my son

my light

my joy

my gift to hubby

my final creation

of blood and heart and soul

the light of my life

I hope the lessons I learned

from Abba and Sissy

help me

be an even better mother

for you

Son

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my firstborn son

my lifeline

in a tumultuous life

the greatest joy

and deepest sorrows

both

from babyhood

to teenage years

to now

a grown man

a good heart

a beautiful mind

a sensitive soul

and a man I am proud of

strong

able

sometimes impulsive

with his own unique

perspective

finding his way

he is beautiful

he is my son

Daughter

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beautiful

pink and rosy baby

and right away

she smiled at me

she heard the sound of my voice

and smiled

and she was

independent

saucy

strong

and still is all that

and much more

I am proud of her

of her courage

of her ability

to recognize

and embrace

her own faults 

and imperfections

and still

embrace

who she is

still have fierce

independence and

strength

and a willingness to grow

and change

she is brave

and strong

she is beautiful

she is my daughter

Letting Go

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it couldn't be

clearer

to me

that I worry

and stress

for nothing

and that it is

just another way

in which

I punish myself

for what?

for having a heart

for caring about someone

more than they ever could 

care for me

for being willing

to open my heart

and give it

for being willing to give

and accommodate

and love

with everything that I am

that is neither a fault

nor a failing

and I am not sorry for offering it

that you do not appreciate 

the gift that is ME

is ALL on YOU

I say no more

and I will 

teach my heart

to follow

what my head

already knows

and I will

let GO

Creative BOMB

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beads

findings

string

connectors

colours

and fancy pieces

spread out all over the bed

a piece here

and a wire there

some beads

and a new creation

is born

when I begin

in a small area

to build and create

one of my pretties

it never stays small

before long

the whole bed is covered

in this and that

and I have

not one

not two

or even three

projects on the go

but MANY

the ideas of where to go next

spread out

into the results

of my latest

creative BOMB

Change

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I don't like it

not all change 

is GOOD

maybe in the end

I will see

what IS good

in it

after the bricks fall

and the dust flies

after the old 

passes on 

and something new is born

after the flames 

burn down to ash

and once again 

the phoenix

rises anew

begins again

with fresh eyes

a clean heart

and a stronger soul

maybe then

I will KNOW

that change is GOOD

after all

I AM...A MIRACLE

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from the moment

I became

a twinkle

in God's eye

and created 

in HIS image

I have been

a MIRACLE

of divine creation

and so are YOU

when you consider

everything that IS

included in the make up

of a human being

don't you SEE

don't you KNOW

don't you UNDERSTAND

the heighth

the breadth

the width

the MAGNITUDE

the DEPTHS 

of who and what you are?

you and I ARE

beautiful

vibrant

visions of LIFE

and we are 

a 

MIRACLE

Queen

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I am

STRONG

I can do this

I am

A QUEEN

I have strength

dignity

beauty

respect

love

acceptance

forgiveness

and power

for MYSELF

I can and will

STAND

for myself

and against 

whatever 

comes my way

Bitter

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there are times

when I think

the hurt and indignation

is gone

over

that I have let go

that I have moved forward

and forgiven

and then

something

irks me again

reminds me

draws my attention

feeds my guilt

and the ignorance

that kept me blind so long

nags me

boils hotly in my blood

and I am angry again

that I invested so much

that I gave myself

that it matters so much

and it was nothing 

but a lie

it is hard to let go

it is hard not to be

bitter

and I am

Reading

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sometimes

time with

a good book

is an escape

from the monotony

and drudgery of life

a journey into

romance

intrigue

complex and interesting

characters

and adventures

for a time

the troubles

of life

are held at bay

and someone else's story

catches your mind

for awhile

Struggling

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struggling

to find

faith

to believe

"an angel once told me,

to believe"

and I did

and I do

and then the doubt

bowls me over

and encroaches

on the tiny

space of belief 

in my heart

and I worry

and stress

and cannot trust

to faith

to miracles

or to the muse

in the depths

of my own soul

I want to

I want to...

but there it is

Without Internet

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I hate

being without

my internet

for days

and days

on end

because

I lose

connection

to the threads

and pathways

of my creative

spark

of my inspirations

and ideas

I feel

disconnected 

and lost

in deep places

inside my soul