Struggling

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struggling

fighting

trying

failing

falling

crashing

digging a deep hole

sinking into the deep

wallowing in self-pity

a victim

I own my responsibility

and I choose

to climb

and sometimes

I slide back down

falling into the dark

only a glimmer of light

in the distance

and again I climb

and slide

and eventually

I reach the rise

climb out of the deep darkness

and turn my face to the sun

i have risen anew from the ashes

but the journey

has only truly begun

and I will climb and slide

fight and falter

a million times again

before I reach the next rise

and once again 

feel the shine of the sun

tomorrow is another day

to rise anew from the ashes

and though I may get tired

I MUST keep on

fighting

trying

struggling

Change

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I don't like it

not all change 

is GOOD

maybe in the end

I will see

what IS good

in it

after the bricks fall

and the dust flies

after the old 

passes on 

and something new is born

after the flames 

burn down to ash

and once again 

the phoenix

rises anew

begins again

with fresh eyes

a clean heart

and a stronger soul

maybe then

I will KNOW

that change is GOOD

after all

Why I Write

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to speak

the voice 

inside my heart

to tell

a story

about love

to open

the floodgates

of my soul

to entertain

to live and breathe

the words

in my head

to love

to give

to dream

to feed 

the phoenix flame

to grow

to learn

to live

a thousand lives

to BE

Why Must YOU

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why must you

always

say out loud

the things I know

the words that are already in my heart

why must you

always

say out loud

the whispers in my soul

the nudges and reminders I need

why must you

always

say out loud

the things you say to spark me

and push me one step further

why must you

always

say out loud

the lessons I KNOW

the ones I am afraid of

I KNOW why you must

always

say out loud

the words you say

the words that engage me

I KNOW I must

always

answer the call

 dreaming in the flame

my power and passion renewed

I KNOW I must

always

answer the call

burning myself down to the ashes

and rising anew a phoenix

I KNOW I must

always

answer the call

and be inspired to embrace 

the light, the joy and the magic within me

Tattoo I Get NEXT Hopefully...

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I love this phoenix tattoo and I want it in the colours in the pic.

I love the purples and oranges.

It symbolizes a new beginning inside myself that came about when I met my muse. 

He helped me see some things properly and heal some parts of me that had long been broken.

I want this on my back and it's going to be bigger than any I've had as of yet,

therefore it will also be more expensive...

so I am saving NOW and hopefully

will get it for my birthday! :)