Tears

{Post: 250/365}

eyes burning

ragged and raw

wrenching sobs

of anguish

in the grip

of fear

looking too far 

forward

dry the tears

of terror

from your eyes

and press on

baby steps

one day at a time

Why Must YOU

{Post: 248/365}

why must you

always

say out loud

the things I know

the words that are already in my heart

why must you

always

say out loud

the whispers in my soul

the nudges and reminders I need

why must you

always

say out loud

the things you say to spark me

and push me one step further

why must you

always

say out loud

the lessons I KNOW

the ones I am afraid of

I KNOW why you must

always

say out loud

the words you say

the words that engage me

I KNOW I must

always

answer the call

 dreaming in the flame

my power and passion renewed

I KNOW I must

always

answer the call

burning myself down to the ashes

and rising anew a phoenix

I KNOW I must

always

answer the call

and be inspired to embrace 

the light, the joy and the magic within me

On the Edge

{Post: 244/365}

standing 

on the edge

of a precipice

terrified

fear

breaking out

in beads 

on my brow

soon...

I will jump

and

I will dream

and 

hope beyond hope

that I will sprout

iridescent

fairy wings

and FLY

Control

{Post: 182/365}

parts

of my disease

are beyond

my control

sometimes

I am hit

with news

I do NOT

appreciate

and the intial shock

causes fear

frustration

and sorrows

and then

I MUST

deal with life

deal with reality

and do whatever

is IN my control

to do

to improve

and maintain

my sanity

my health

my strength

and my will

in moving foward

TRY!

{Post: 146/365}

fear

is 

debilitating

and 

time-wasting

set your sights

high

and BELIEVE

you can fly

then

even if only

baby steps

one at a time

TRY!

Fear

{Post: 65/365}

how to explain

or express

that every time

some new 

and disturbing

change occurs 

in my body

I feel

TERRIFIED

I accept 

that PARTS of this

are mine to own

and I could have done 

better things

made better choices

but much of this

is NOT my fault

it is the accident

of my birth

into a crappy gene pool

from one parent

the gift of

polycystic kidneys and gout

from the other parent

a family history

of diabetes

as well as arthritis

which won't help later at all

so I try hard

to make changes

and better choices 

NOW

but it is hard 

and sometimes life

and circumstance

fight against me 

in a steady stream of obstacles

it is a daily struggle

but I keep fighting

and hoping

that slow and steady

really does win the race

because otherwise

tomorrow looks bleak

and I don't want 

to meet it

:(

30 Day Facebook Challenge-Post #28

{Post 162/365: Original Post: (28/30) FatCatMomma}

Something I am AFRAID of...