My World

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Happy Birthday!
(sorry it's late)

the day you were born
I was still growing
inside my mother
but soon after
I also entered the world

we grew up
in different places
with different cultures
and yet some similar beliefs
and we learned about the world

one day
our paths intersected
and we met and became friends
and now we share a world
inside the world

there are many
parallels and similarities
in the paths we each travelled
and now that we share one
it seems a better world

and I am grateful
that you were born
to intersect my path
and teach me more than I would ever have known
if you hadn't come into the circle of my world.

Heat

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too hot 

to do much

of anything

but sit in the fan

and rest

keep yourself

hydrated

and 

lay your 

pounding head

still

it will feel better

soon

Headache

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resting eyes
and a head
pounding with pressure
from a change in
air
and climate
waiting for a storm
to break
the heat
and ease the pressure
letting up
on the strong vise
attached
to my head
take a deep breath
and endure!

TRY!

{Post: 146/365}

fear

is 

debilitating

and 

time-wasting

set your sights

high

and BELIEVE

you can fly

then

even if only

baby steps

one at a time

TRY!

Finding My Joy

{Post: 145/365}

how do I find

the smile inside of me

the one that

grows

no matter

what life throws

the one that knows

exactly why

and how 

my soul flows

how deep 

inside myself

must I be

to understand

all that I need

to see

about

the joy and contentment

i bring to ME

by searching

experience

and choosing

to live

for everything

I am willing

to give

and all of the things

keeping my heart

active

I find

the smile

inside of me

I know 

how deep

 I have to be

and I 

that i AM

all and everything I need

inside of ME

Restless

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restless energy

rising up

inside me

decisions

about what to do

swirling 

mind unable to choose

I try to read

but cannot focus

I think about

writing

but cannot settle

my mind 

into a rhythm

I watch tv for awhile

it is not as much

amusement

as usual

I don't know

what to do with myself

thankfully

days like this 

are rare!

Peace and Quiet!

{Post: 143/365}

sitting today

working

on poetry

and blog posts

in silence

and 

thoroughly 

enjoying the peace

the quiet

is often

broken up

by the sound of

kitty upstairs

chasing her favourite

toy mouse

sometimes she is loud

but I still enjoy

the peace and quiet

no music

muted computer

no tv

nothing to spoil

my quiet afternoon

at all

alas

in just a few minutes

the kid returns from school

and with him

a cacophony

of laughter

yelling

video games

crunching and munching

and whatever other noises 

he will think to make

because he does NOT

enjoy the silence!

Desirable

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the spirited
goddess
of love and femininity
that resides on the inside
of you
is wonderful
and beautiful
and desirable
you must know it
before anyone else
can see it
and you must
feed the fire
inside
for YOU
are worth having!

Dream

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if you hide something
deep in your heart
a belief
in something you want
to achieve
something you
work towards having someday
we call it a dream
some may believe it is
only fancy
and will never come true
but it is important
to have a dream
and to follow it
all the way through!

a dream is also
something that happens
while you are sleeping
and can be
delightful
terrifying
or insightful
and one or all of these
can help you sort through
the thoughts and feelings
of your life

Delight

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something
that gives you
great pleasure
and joy
is a delight
to the heart
and the soul
and lifts your spirits
like the sun
shining on your face
or the first time
a baby giggles
or a soft sweet kitten
to cuddle

Childhood

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childhood

running outside

to dance in the rain

splashing in puddles

giggling

and laughing

as children do

mom and auntie

watching from the window

smiling at 

the exuberant antics

of childhood

warm summer air

rain showers

and puddles

bringing icky worms 

to the surface

and the smell of wet grass

and warm mud

in the air

coming in dirtier

than when we went out

and needing

a shower

to clean off the rainwater

and mud splatters

more work for mom

shampoo and soap

smelling clean again

loving

the spontaneous fun

and mess

laughter and joy

in the moments

of childhood

Fidgety

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itchy

twitchy

fidgety

and jiggity

jumpity

bumpity

beginning a

grumpity

feeling

witchy

and

you know ;)

sleepytime

night night

Twitchy Legs

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hard to explain

this feeling

of twitchiness

yawning

sleepy

trying to finish 

jobs for today

body feeling

jangly

legs

getting twitchy

feet hot

and feeling itchy

it means

I need 

to go to SLEEP

and is most

aggravating

Thank You

{Post: 136/365}

thank you

for

being my friend

opening a doorway

showing me more 

than I have known before

offering your hand

in support and encouragement

nudging me

to step through the doorway

helping me find

my voice

giving me a space and a platform

to learn to speak it

listening

even when my voice shakes

but encouraging me

to continue

to be true

to myself and others

to learn

to grow

to open my heart

to give

and to offer my friendship

to them

thank you 

for knowing me

accepting me

loving me

and 

allowing me

to BE me

Giving Up

{Post: 135/365}

stop

curl up in a ball

let nature take its course

give up 

fall down

stay there

fade into dust

so weak

frustrated

scared

Mother

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there are no words

eloquent enough

or real enough 

to express the depth

of love

and gratitude

in my heart

that YOU

are my mother

there are no words

big enough

or important enough

to honour

your love for me

your patience

your sacrifices

and

support

thank you

Happy Mother's Day 

2012

The DEEP BLUE FUNK

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the

DEEP BLUE FUNK

is dancing 

on the outskirts

gunning for me

waiting with

dark intent

licking blood red lips

and laughing

fingers grasping

catching hold

dragging me down

tasting

delicious

doubts and fears

feeding on 

my worry and sorrows

waiting

knowing

if it drags me 

all the way down

it will be twice as hard

for me to climb

outside again

it is DEEP

not a pretty vibrant BLUE

but one of night

one of secret shadows

and darkness

and it is subtle in its FUNK

because it sneaks in

like a thief in the night

and unaware

you will realize one day 

you have already been 

swallowed whole

only to drift

unable to see

unable to change

unable to grow

stagnant

lost

unable to function

for real

lost in the dark

in the night of your own soul

unable to heal

unable to live

sometimes

it is even too hard

just to breath

BUT

one day

something NEW

and a LIGHT 

shines into your dark

it shows you the way

the light in your soul

is reborn

NOW

you must do

whatever it takes

to keep the light

of life and joy

burning

you must choose

LIFE

you must choose

LOVE

and you must do battle

with the DEEP BLUE FUNK

Don't Worry, Be Happy

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(love and miss you DAD xo)

what would you tell me

to do 

to get through this life

what would you say

to encourage me 

on this journey

i wish i still had

the benefit

of your knowledge and experience

i wish i had as much

fight and hope

and endurance for tomorrow

i am just trying

to get through today

with my spirit intact

i am not sorry

that i am here

and i hope that you never were either

where I am now

was just an accident of genetics

and not really anyone's fault

I am trying daily

to adopt a positive attitude

and follow your advice

because I finally DO 

understand

"don't worry, be happy"

I AM strong because of you

but there are times 

when I miss you so much 

it would be easier

if you were here with me

but somehow I will find my way

I will always be grateful

for the time

that I did get to share with you

My Offer of Friendship

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I want

to touch

your heart

with my heart

when like meets like

and spark of

recognition

I want 

to touch

your hand

with my hand

knowing my touch of

warmth and compassion 

is welcome

I want 

to touch

your mind

with my mind

in an everlasting

and ever changing

dance of intellect

I want

to touch

your spirit

and energy

with the essence of me

and share the comfort

of friendship

I want

to touch

your face

with gentleness and love

so you will know

the depth of my feeling 

for you

I want

to hold you close

and shelter your hurt

with a warm hug

a pat on the back

and all the support

in my heart

I want

to touch

your SOUL

with all that is me

inside mine

so that you will KNOW

I am WITH YOU

This is 

the touch

of my heart

mind and soul

and the friendship

I will offer

to YOU

WELCOME

SLOW

{Post: 130/365}

stress

worry

pressure

so many things

need doing

so many changes I face

I'm not 

DOING

enough

I am not

DOING

whatever it is 

I need to be doing

FAST ENOUGH

I feel like

a hamster on a treadmill

running in circles

forever

but going

nowhere

or if I am getting anywhere

it is so slow

the progress cannot even be seen

frustrated

just doesn't seem enough

word

to express

YOU are BEAUTIFUL!

{Post: 129/365}

Erasure Poem Form. (Taken from original post: BEAUTY~09/08/2011 in I AM a QUEEN)

Are YOU aware

that you are beautiful?

Whether or not

you fit into

the world's standard

we all know

a beautiful woman

we feel inferior

and we just don't measure up

...if only

STOP!!

YOU are beautiful

just as you are!

all the wonderful,

positive things about you

your OWN distinct beauty

is all the love and acceptance

and compassion you hold for yourself

shine

and other people will see you as you truly are!

We are ALL beautiful

in our own way

Beauty IS deeper inside you

than can be seen

with only a set of eyes

so cherish well the people

who know the truth of YOUR beauty

for they are TREASURES

but, LEARN to see your own beauty

and cherish YOURSELF!

Breaking Down Walls

{Post: 128/365}

Erasure poem form. (Taken from original post: The Power~03/13/2011 in the blog I AM LOVE)

the power

of a touch,

a smile,

a kind word,

a listening ear,

something you have said

or done

has made all the difference

some people build walls

to keep people out

sometimes they build walls

to see who cares enough

to get past them,

around them,

through them.

We should strive

to be people

who break down walls...

gently.

Courage

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the quiet voice

inside

that says

yes you can

yes you should

STAND

whether you are 

afraid

or you are 

NOT

courage

is the ability

to

face everything

with strength

and 

fortitude

Inspiration

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Inspired by this painting:
Healing With Art


my heart
creates roots
deep in the fibre of me
like the root system
of a tree
and as I grow
stronger
older
wiser
my heart opens
wider
and I am willing
to reach towards
the sky
or new people
with ever more
buds and blooms
of heart flowers and
connections
and joy

Content

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be content

with all that you have

be satisfied

and accept

who and what you are

be grateful 

for the journey

and the lessons

in your life

and have

peace of mind

Confidence

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the quality

of being

certain

and sure

of yourself

and your 

abilities

ideas

beliefs

talents

to do

what it is

you want to do

and know that

you CAN

Choice

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having the ability

to weigh and measure

each option

presented in life

and

making your own

choice

is

right

and necessary

for ALL

yes or no

stay or go

to accept or not to

to change or not to

to learn or grow

or not to

it is always

your own

choice

I Believe

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I believe

that

I deserve

to be loved

and

I can give 

MY love

without FEAR

because I am worthy

I believe

that

whatever I WANT

to do

I CAN do

because

I am intelligent

and capable

and ABLE

I believe

that

I can

shine a light

in dark places

with my LOVE

with my HEART

with my SOUL

and that

I should

I believe

that everything

happens 

for a reason

to create a change

to teach a lesson

to help us grow

I believe

that

what is meant to be

will BE

will find its way

in its own right time

and fulfill a destiny

I believe

that people

come to you

for a moment

for a season

for a lifetime

for a purpose

and a meaning

in your life

I believe

that even the difficult people

can teach something

about life

about values

about respect

about love

or maybe the lack thereof

for themselves

and for you

and even

yours for yourself

LEARN

and

I believe

that you can be 

open for tomorrow

in your life 

and friendships

and let go

of yesterday

and of today

and not cling to

what has passed

if it is time to let go

LET GO

I believe

in LOVE

and loyalty

and to cherish

the people we love

for always

yet

sometimes

we do this 

by moving on 

and letting go

and it is

OK