Giving Up

{Post: 135/365}

stop

curl up in a ball

let nature take its course

give up 

fall down

stay there

fade into dust

so weak

frustrated

scared

Mother

{Post: 134/365}

there are no words

eloquent enough

or real enough 

to express the depth

of love

and gratitude

in my heart

that YOU

are my mother

there are no words

big enough

or important enough

to honour

your love for me

your patience

your sacrifices

and

support

thank you

Happy Mother's Day 

2012

The DEEP BLUE FUNK

{Post: 133/365}

the

DEEP BLUE FUNK

is dancing 

on the outskirts

gunning for me

waiting with

dark intent

licking blood red lips

and laughing

fingers grasping

catching hold

dragging me down

tasting

delicious

doubts and fears

feeding on 

my worry and sorrows

waiting

knowing

if it drags me 

all the way down

it will be twice as hard

for me to climb

outside again

it is DEEP

not a pretty vibrant BLUE

but one of night

one of secret shadows

and darkness

and it is subtle in its FUNK

because it sneaks in

like a thief in the night

and unaware

you will realize one day 

you have already been 

swallowed whole

only to drift

unable to see

unable to change

unable to grow

stagnant

lost

unable to function

for real

lost in the dark

in the night of your own soul

unable to heal

unable to live

sometimes

it is even too hard

just to breath

BUT

one day

something NEW

and a LIGHT 

shines into your dark

it shows you the way

the light in your soul

is reborn

NOW

you must do

whatever it takes

to keep the light

of life and joy

burning

you must choose

LIFE

you must choose

LOVE

and you must do battle

with the DEEP BLUE FUNK

Don't Worry, Be Happy

{Post: 132/365}
(love and miss you DAD xo)

what would you tell me

to do 

to get through this life

what would you say

to encourage me 

on this journey

i wish i still had

the benefit

of your knowledge and experience

i wish i had as much

fight and hope

and endurance for tomorrow

i am just trying

to get through today

with my spirit intact

i am not sorry

that i am here

and i hope that you never were either

where I am now

was just an accident of genetics

and not really anyone's fault

I am trying daily

to adopt a positive attitude

and follow your advice

because I finally DO 

understand

"don't worry, be happy"

I AM strong because of you

but there are times 

when I miss you so much 

it would be easier

if you were here with me

but somehow I will find my way

I will always be grateful

for the time

that I did get to share with you

My Offer of Friendship

{Post: 131/365}

I want

to touch

your heart

with my heart

when like meets like

and spark of

recognition

I want 

to touch

your hand

with my hand

knowing my touch of

warmth and compassion 

is welcome

I want 

to touch

your mind

with my mind

in an everlasting

and ever changing

dance of intellect

I want

to touch

your spirit

and energy

with the essence of me

and share the comfort

of friendship

I want

to touch

your face

with gentleness and love

so you will know

the depth of my feeling 

for you

I want

to hold you close

and shelter your hurt

with a warm hug

a pat on the back

and all the support

in my heart

I want

to touch

your SOUL

with all that is me

inside mine

so that you will KNOW

I am WITH YOU

This is 

the touch

of my heart

mind and soul

and the friendship

I will offer

to YOU

WELCOME

SLOW

{Post: 130/365}

stress

worry

pressure

so many things

need doing

so many changes I face

I'm not 

DOING

enough

I am not

DOING

whatever it is 

I need to be doing

FAST ENOUGH

I feel like

a hamster on a treadmill

running in circles

forever

but going

nowhere

or if I am getting anywhere

it is so slow

the progress cannot even be seen

frustrated

just doesn't seem enough

word

to express

YOU are BEAUTIFUL!

{Post: 129/365}

Erasure Poem Form. (Taken from original post: BEAUTY~09/08/2011 in I AM a QUEEN)

Are YOU aware

that you are beautiful?

Whether or not

you fit into

the world's standard

we all know

a beautiful woman

we feel inferior

and we just don't measure up

...if only

STOP!!

YOU are beautiful

just as you are!

all the wonderful,

positive things about you

your OWN distinct beauty

is all the love and acceptance

and compassion you hold for yourself

shine

and other people will see you as you truly are!

We are ALL beautiful

in our own way

Beauty IS deeper inside you

than can be seen

with only a set of eyes

so cherish well the people

who know the truth of YOUR beauty

for they are TREASURES

but, LEARN to see your own beauty

and cherish YOURSELF!