Sisters

{Post: 67/365}

I never had a sister

of my own

but I take them

where I find them in life

and I now have

MANY

I know that I can call them

talk to them

be supported and encouraged by them

whenever I have need

I know that I can trust them

trust my children with them

believe deeply in their love for me

I know that we may have differences

In status, lifestyle, age  or maybe upbringing

but in mutual love, respect and commitment

we are bonded

we are equal

we are sisters

and I thank them all

for being the women who show me

what sisterhood means

what love means

The Light in My Life

{Post: 66/365}

the light in my life

is a friend

who lifts my spirit

when I am down

the light in my life

is a kitty

who warms my side

while encroaching on my space

the light in my life

are my two boys

who for no reason at all

will hug me and say, "I love you, mom!"

the light in my life

is my daughter

who dances to her own beat

and  I admire her

the light in my life

is a step-father

who calls me his "darling daughter"

and has a beautiful and generous heart

the light in my life

is my mother

who may not always agree with me

but will back me fiercely anyway

the light in my life

is hubby

who is my soulmate

and my best friend...always

the light in my life

is each soul connection made

whether here in my presence

or through the miracle of the internet

the light in my life

may be...

YOU

Fear

{Post: 65/365}

how to explain

or express

that every time

some new 

and disturbing

change occurs 

in my body

I feel

TERRIFIED

I accept 

that PARTS of this

are mine to own

and I could have done 

better things

made better choices

but much of this

is NOT my fault

it is the accident

of my birth

into a crappy gene pool

from one parent

the gift of

polycystic kidneys and gout

from the other parent

a family history

of diabetes

as well as arthritis

which won't help later at all

so I try hard

to make changes

and better choices 

NOW

but it is hard 

and sometimes life

and circumstance

fight against me 

in a steady stream of obstacles

it is a daily struggle

but I keep fighting

and hoping

that slow and steady

really does win the race

because otherwise

tomorrow looks bleak

and I don't want 

to meet it

:(

Hunger

{Post: 64/365}

I hunger for 

food

to feed and sustain

my body

I hunger for 

knowledge

to feed and enrich

my mind

I hunger for

companionship

to support and nurture

my heart

I hunger for 

love

to build and encourage

my own ability to love

I hunger for

friendship

to share laughter and sorrow and for

growth

I hunger for

understanding

to bring my soul rest and

healing

I hunger for

a purpose

to give my life and soul

meaning

and

I must FEED

all of these needs

equally

to be whole.

Bubble Bath

{Post: 63/365}

I need a long soak

in a hot tub

full of bubbles

and the relaxing scent

of lavender

I need a quiet soak

in a hot bath tub

as the cares and stress

of the day

wash away

I need a healing soak

in my bath tub

as i warm my body

and soothe my spirit

with hot water and bubbles

Comfort

{Post: 62/365}

I love

the absolute comfort

of being with you

and knowing you are with me

through thick and thin

whatever may come

the thought of us

being shaken up

or broken

and having to

find my own way

again

fills me with terror 

and horror

I know that I COULD

because I AM strong

and capable

but who would ever want to?

I LOVE 

the absolute comfort

of being with you

and KNOWING

we will be together 

against 

whatever does come

Tired

{Post: 61/365}

fighting

daily

to 

eat right

 exercise

take my meds

test my sugars

drink enough water

and otherwise

be WELL

makes me

TIRED!

it is NOT

easy

it is 

overwhelming

CHANGE

and 

while I DO

continue to struggle

I often want to

GIVE UP

GIVE IN

NOT CARE

and just do whatever I want

but

I want to LIVE

so I have to try

no matter how tired I get