Holiday Poem

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Christmas 
shopping mall parking lots full of cars
pumpkin pie spices float on the air
Christmas carols on the radio
candy canes stirred and melted into a cup of hot chocolate
wrapping with tissue paper and curling ribbons
Christmas

List Poem #3

What’s in the middle of my Christmas tree 
a handmade jingle bell wreath ornament made out of red and gold bells 
an adorable ornament of Bambi wearing a Christmas Santa cap
a combination of six strands of both white still lights and coloured blinking ones 
my son's and daughter's Baby's First Christmas ornaments 
our First Christmas Together ornament which it is hubby's job to hang every year
both non-breakable and breakable Christmas ball ornaments in a variety of colours
silver pinecone and snowflake ornaments 
handmade beaded ornaments that catch the lights and sparkle prettily

FORGIVENESS

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A mistake is
Just that...
A mistake.

If you are sorry
BE that...
Be sorry.

If you are wrong
or even if not...
Apologize.

Do what is necessary
to fix it...
Make amends.

Don't hang on
to the pain...
Let it GO.

Show compassion
to the injured party...
and to YOURSELF.

In the end
Forgiveness...
Will heal your heart.

Saturday Night Sleepover

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Having hubby's BFF over with her son for a movie night sleepover like we usually do.
Looking forward to it!
At the moment I'm trying to work on xmas presents and get them wrapped and hidden so the surprise isn't spoiled! LOL  So get off the blog and get back to wrappin'!! ;)
We're gonna have pizza and salad for supper, snacks and maybe ice cream to snack on later and watch a couple of movies after we send the bratty boys off to bed!! hehehe
So fun girl time tonight! YAY! :)

Happy Birthday MOM! xo

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I made a lovely little necklace and earring set for my momma for her bday and decided to share it with you here:

Ornaments

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Making ornaments for Christmas FINALLY...they are prettier than they look in pics...LOL

My FIRST Gumbo!

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Original Recipe:

http://allrecipes.com/recipe/ultimate-gulf-coast-gumbo/detail.aspx

I made some substitutions so mine was slightly different but still yummy!

I had no celery so I will add that next time.

I had no file powder or Old Bay Seasoning so I used Cajun Spice.

I only used one can of crab meat.

I don't cook with salt.

AND I used mild italian sausage.

Hubby had 3 bowls and Gibby had 2!

YAY! My first GUMBO!! :)

Christmas Wishlist

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Just in case anyone-who-gives-me-presents-is-actually-reading-this-blog-and-wondering-what-to-give-me! LOL

• bubble bath, bubble bath, bubble bath (please no PEACH scent)
• wire work beading magazines are always appreciated
• I really DO like gift cards or certificates for (Walmart, The Craft Nook, or even dinners)
• MAKE me something...YES I DO love COOKIES!!! (because I AM a diabetic and I no longer bake them or buy them for myself...so a Christmas goodie tray makes my whole day!) :) Also I appreciate crafts and things you make yourself (and a great example is a very simple bracelet Josh made me one year and I wore it every day for months because I loved it so much!!) -I also like ornaments for my tree ;)
• candles (I'm fond of cinnamon, vanilla, lavendar, gardenia, jasmine)
• honestly there is nothing I want more than that you show up for Christmas Dinner, share a joyful evening of family/friends, good food, good music, and TIME with me and maybe give me a HUG (or a kiss under the mistletoe-you know I love a mistletoe kiss lol)...bring yourself...it is more than enough to make me feel loved and appreciated and HAPPY :)
• and just in case you don't remember reading it FIRST...you can NEVER go wrong with bubble bath. Bath time is my relax time. I get rid of stresses that way and I'm always running out of bubbles!! So you'd be helping me de-stress if you bring me some! ;)  ( I LIKE berry scents, flowery scents, sugary/vanilla scents, really anything but PEACH or MANGO lol)

Christmas Ornaments

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MY first beaded snowflake.
It's in red, green and gold Christmas colours.
It's smaller than I imagined it would be.
I need wire and bigger beads for the rest of them and maybe some blues, whites and silvers too! ;)
But, it's a cute little snowflake and I'm proud of it! :)

Christmas Tree Lights

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Getting in the mood.............

with beautiful, glowing and blinking (4 separate strands) coloured lights

AND

2 strands of soft white lights!

Next Iron Chef

{Post: 323/365}This is the craziest episode I've ever seen yet!
They are cooking octopus, tortillas, marshmallows and kumquat...
what the hell can they possibly make out of this combo???
Apparently some of the chefs actually combo these ingredients with some success according to the judges!
WOW!! I love the Iron Chefsand I can't wait to see who wins this season. :)

Better Things

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I have decided that 2012 is MY year.
I intend to WORK as hard as I can to be consistent and focused and get more books written and get at least ONE of them published! It's my early New Year's Resolution but I hope to be very serious about it!
WORK, WORK, WORK, WORK, WORK!!!! lol

Forgiveness

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I forgive you but I can no longer be your friend.
It is a long old history we have full of ups and downs, fights and fun, friendship, sisterhood, love...or so I thought. I don't know what I ever did to you that makes you want to squash me down so much and hurt me but it seems that everything you do is designed to cause me the most hurt in the softest places.
There have been so many different things over the last few years and the biggest over the last few months that have seriously opened my eyes and NOW I see. You don't care about me at all. You care about YOU. Everything you do in regards to me is meant to make me feel like a bug or a slug or a piece of crap and YOU like you are something and someone much better than me, much more of everything.
I forgive you because I think that you don't like yourself so deeply that you MUST use and abuse and manipulate me in order to feel anything good at all.
I am doing the best thing for both of us. I am stopping this madness. We've had this insane, twisted competitive relationship long enough.
I really hope that you will do the work you need to do to find the truth inside yourself and become a better, wiser, stronger version of yourself but I don't think that is possible if we are attached to each other.
I've allowed this behaviour already for far too long.
I deserve better than this and really so do you.
I have never been strong enough to tell you how I feel and apparently still am not because I'm writing it like this. THIS really is not for you. THIS is so I have said it, am done with it now and can let it go.
I have loved you for years and so allowed many many things because maybe I don't always like a person's behaviour or choices but I love them and so I allow them to just BE, no matter what. I am angry and bitter about many of the things you have done to me but I don't hate you. I forgive you.
I love you for the many wonderful things you HAVE done and the things we have shared that were joyful and good but I can no longer be the punching bag that keeps taking hits. My skin is peeling and the stuffing is falling out. I've had ENOUGH. I hope you find whatever it is that you are missing because it is obvious that SOMETHING is lacking or you wouldn't have to try and take everything that is MINE.
I don't have the strength or energy for you anymore because I am taking the most terrifying, energy draining, stress filled ride of my life and if you can't support me through it and instead feel the need to add to the pain, confusion and distress then there really is no option but to cut you loose.
This is NOT about something that happened in the past though that is a big part of it because it is a reference point. THIS is about what you are doing in the NOW of our lives. It is actually repeating a previous action.
I don't know why you did it the first time. I don't know why you did it this time.
I think that perhaps it should be the point you begin with when you decide to search your soul for the reasons you have ever done what you've done. YOU alone are responsible for your choices.
It was never what you did. It was always the lies you told. I think the problem really is that you lie to yourself the most and it makes it easier to believe the stories you tell other people.
I hate liars. Yet, I forgave you and we moved forward because I believed you were sorry. I believed that you loved me. I believed that I had some value for you. Even when you did things that I KNOW were meant to dig at me and hurt me, I believed that I mattered to you and there was some reason I deserved it.
I DON'T deserve it. I never did. I no longer believe a word you say. You are a LIAR. You always have been and unless YOU choose not to be you always will be.
Even for that I forgive you. The problem is that I have seen the truth and I can't go backwards into what was. I must go forward now. I don't know what will happen in the future.
Unfortunately, we are attached in some ways and it will probably mean occasional socializing but I need it to be very clear that we are NOT friends any longer and I will NOT lie, pretend or play nice.
I don't believe you and I can't see a time that I ever will again.
Still, I do not wish evil for you. I WISH for you to own up to yourself and find out who you really are and what you really want and need. I don't think you even know yourself.
I wish for you to find whatever happiness you can and even if that means you need to take all MY friends with you...so be it.
I wish you well. I forgive you. I hope that you find healing for whatever tortures your heart and soul.
I do forgive you but we are no longer friends.

Drama

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You know what...I'm tired of drama and bullshit.
I want a life without it. Is it really insane to want friendships with people who value and respect me rather than devalue and disrespect me? I'm just a girl who wants to spend time with her friends and appreciate the qualities and joy that they bring to her without drama and stress and issues.
I want joy.
I want laughter.
I want good food.
I want friends I can share with and trust.
I want comfort.
I want fun.
I want intelligent conversation.
I want understanding.
I want compassion.
I want acceptance.
I want to be valued.
I want to be appreciated.
I want to know that investing my love, time and attention matters and is valued and returned.
Is it really too much to ask????

Loyalty

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     I don't care if it is right or wrong, close-minded, or selfish, I expect my friends to be as loyal to me as I am to them. I suspect that I am very foolish to believe that anyone would NOT be talking about me or making judgements about me behind my back because it seems that we are ALL guilty of it at some point. I DO try to refrain from bitching about irritating things people do and YES, sometimes, I like anyone can lose my temper and my hold on my tongue and say something mean too but I feel very HURT when I think people are talking about me behind MY back so much that they become less loyal to me and more loyal to whoever else they are talking to. IF I have really done something so wrong and terrible please feel free to tell me to my face!
I don't want to be friends with you for whatever reason. My friends want to be friends with you. That's fine...be friends with whoever you want to be friends with. However, when you talk about my private business without my knowledge or acceptance or share MY information with someone I don't TRUST when you KNOW that it will upset me...I feel BETRAYAL.
You figure out what happens next.

Halloween 2011

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On Oct. 29th this year we had a Halloween party and it was a good time!
I tried a few new recipes and they seemed to be a hit!

Deviled Green Goblin Eggs

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SIMPLE PIMPLES

1-2 dozen cherry tomatoes

flavored soft cream cheese spread

Core tomatoes with a carrot peeler or knife. Drain excess tomato juice. Using a butter knife, fill holes in tomatoes with cream cheese. Give each "pimple" a gentle squeeze and arrange on a platter.

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BLOODY BUG JUICE
24 oz frozen strawberries, thawed
6 oz lemonade, frozen concentrate
1 quart ginger ale
1 cup raisins
1 cup blueberries, fresh or frozen
Place the strawberries in a bowl and mash with a fork. In a large pitcher, mix the strawberry mash, lemonade and ginger ale. Place handfuls of raisins and blueberries (bugs) into tall glasses. Pour the liquid over the bugs, then sit back and watch the bugs and scum rise to the top of each glass.
To quench a creepy crowd's thirst, double or triple this recipe and serve in a punch bowl. Drape some gummy worms over the rim of your bowl for a particularly swampy-looking effect!

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Of course we had chips & dip and some of the other usual party snacks but we had a great time too! :)

30 Day Blog Challenge-Post #30

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WHATEVER TICKLES YOUR FANCY:

30 Day Blog Challenge-Post #29

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HOPES, DREAMS and PLANS for the next 365 days:
     I am hoping beginning January 2012 to write a POEM a day for my 365 Words of the Day blog and continue writing and improving in each of my others.
I also HOPE to finish a book I've been working on and send it to a publisher. I PLAN on 2012 being MY year!
I plan to continue doing my best to follow my diets, get more exercise and otherwise continue to work hard keeping myself healthy and in upbeat positive spirits.
   I hope to continue helping my friend answer Breaking Questions and believe that we are helping people solve or at least feel better about their issues.
I hope to continue working on my businesses and if not make a living at least sell what I have now to make other changes and choices in the coming year.
I just HOPE most for a better year than the last one and a little growth, change and more of the family and friendships that make my life...LIFE!

30 Day Blog Challenge-Post #28

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THIS YEAR, IN GREAT DETAIL:
January- We began a new year with hope for a better one than last year. We had a rough winter for money and I had problems paying for medicine for awhile. However, we managed to get through it. We had a Triple Birthday Bash for Shawn, Mary and Nicky and it was a fun time! I also began blogging my 365 day blog. 
February- I began working with my MUSE in his group Breaking Question of the Day in earnest and answering questions regularly. I also began to recognize the goddess inside myself and start writing and sharing my thoughts about that. This month marked Gib's 10th birthday and hubby, Gib and I had a lovely crab leg dinner for Valentine's Day!
March- I started writing more about being a QUEEN and also began planning a girl's weekend for all of us to enjoy which didn't end up working out.
April- This month I spent a week in bed from a cyst bursting and causing me four days of pain and kidney ache. It was the first time for this to happen. We also celebrated our 13th Anniversary on the 18th and went out for a nice dinner together as we do every year. :)
May- It was hubby's 40th birthday this month and we celebrated with our friends and family by going out for dinner at the hibachi table at Wabora and then getting together at our house afterwards. Everyone enjoyed their dinner and we had a fun party! 
June- My daughter turned 21 this month and we enjoyed the beginning of summer with warm days and sunshine.
July- My son turned 22 this month and we began planning and preparing for our August Adult Camping trip we do every year. I started going to book club with the girls.
August- I made an appointment to get my newest tattoo in Sept. and started getting really excited for it! I turned 41 this month and I realized that being in my 40s feels really good. I like where I am and I like who I am. We went on our camping trip and for the most part had a great weekend. Some things happened over the course of the summer that came to a head at the end of the month and caused a BIG change in my life and in our group. I stand for MYSELF in the end and that is FINAL.
September- Hubby decided he was having his usual labour day party even though I decided I didn't want one. We did have it though and it was fine. LIFE goes ON!
October- This month marks our annual Halloween party and we had a good time. Hubby's sister even came for awhile and we enjoyed that! We've missed her being there every year since she moved away and it was awesome to have her be part of it again this year! 
November- It is in the middle of the month now and I am trying to plan Christmas, make presents, plan our annual dinner party, soon think of decorations, get ready for winter with hats, boots, mittens etc. for the kid, and otherwise manage all the STRESS!! LOL
December- This will be full of snow, Christmas, family, friends, LOVE, and hopes, dreams and wishes for the next year to be bigger and better and full of beauty and JOY! :)

30 Day Blog Challenge-Post #27

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THIS MONTH, IN GREAT DETAIL:
     Hmmm...well days and weeks run together to make a month that may include also visits to town for Dr. appointments, eye appointments, visits to the diabetic clinic, visits to the kidney care clinic, visits to the lab for bloodwork or other tests, days spent in town hanging out with my friend, going out for lunch, window shopping, sitting in the park, book club and any other extra activity that may come about for someone else's birthday or other celebration or just a random get together because someone decided they enjoy our company and wanted to hang out for an evening! :)
This month is only half way through but is mostly planning and preparation for Christmas which is NEXT MONTH! OMG!! I am making ornaments this year but I haven't even started yet so I'm beginning to feel pressured and stressed which is the NORM for this time of year! I won't settle down till I am finished all that I need to accomplish.
At the end of this month I will put up my Christmas tree and decorate and be ready to enjoy Christmas which is my favourite time of the year!! 
All in all, my life is good. :)

30 Day Blog Challenge-Post #26

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YOUR WEEK, IN GREAT DETAIL:
     My week in great detail is usually five days of the same stuff as discussed in my previous post and the weekend. Both hubby and the kid are home all weekend so the quiet things I do by myself are impossible with two boys in the house! Usually we will do any house or yard jobs that need doing on the weekends , go grocery shopping or other shopping and sometimes visit our parents. Also, weekends are reserved for any parties we may be having for birthdays, Halloween or Christmas and other occasions too. I love time with my friends and family and so really look forward to these things!

30 Day Blog Challenge-Post # 25

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YOUR DAY, IN GREAT DETAIL:
     Hmmmm, well there is never very much to tell about my day but, here we go...
I wake up around 7:30am every morning and take my meds, get my first coffee and make my son's lunch and get him organized and off to school. Then I may do a load of laundry or dishes in the dishwasher and make myself something to eat and sometimes have a second coffee. I may eat a cheese/croissant sandwich or an egg/english muffin sandwich. After I eat I will check facebook, play games, catch up on my blog posts, watch tv or a movie or an old episode of seaquest on Netflix. Sometimes my friend will call and I will talk to her for awhile.
By now, it is probably lunch time and I will try to find something to eat. Usually I have a sandwich, but sometimes leftovers or soup. After lunch pretty much more of the same though perhaps if I have done laundry then I will put it in the drier. In two hours it will be snack time at which time I will have an apple or other fruit, crackers and cheese or a package of pringle sticks or bits and bites. I don't really like most of the sweet things like granola bars so I opt for other kinds of snacks. Sometimes I will have a bath in the afternoon and relax before my son gets home from school. When he gets home he'll play xbox and I will figure out what I'm cooking for dinner.
When hubby gets home we'll have dinner and then we will spend the evening watching all our favourite shows on tv. 
After that will be bedtime.That's pretty much a usual day in my world.

30 Day Blog Challenge-Post #24

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WHATEVER TICKLES YOUR FANCY:

I have made a Soul Collage card to honour my daughter.

To see this card and other ones made to honour my other children, family and friends

please click the link below:

KDB-SoulFriend

30 Day Blog Challenge-Post #23

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A YOUTUBE VIDEO:

Gib dancing in the bathroom...LMAO!!

30 Day Blog Challenge-Post #22

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A WEBSITE:

Check out my website: Wicked Tangents

All stores, writing websites and companies I am affiliated with are posted in my site.

30 Day Blog Challenge-Post #21

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A RECIPE:
Slow Cooked Au Gratin Scalloped Potatoes

Made them for Easter Dinner 2011 and they were a hit! ;)

30 Day Blog Challenge-Post #20

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A HOBBY OF YOURS:

I love to make jewelry pieces and I'm trying to sell some of the same.

If you want to check some of my stuff out click the link:

DivaCatsBling

30 Day Blog Challenge-Post #19

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A TALENT OF YOURS:

Flowers made for my wedding: April 18, 1998

See MORE flowers HERE

30 Day Blog Challenge-Post #18

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WHATEVER TICKLES YOUR FANCY:

http://www.make-stuff.com/holidays/christmas/golfangel.html

30 Day Blog Challenge-Post #17

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AN ART PIECE: (painting, drawing, sculpture etc.)

Artwork © 2011 Sara Burrier http://www.sarabillustration.com 


Her artwork has been some of my fave since long ago when I started playing online with psp and making signatures out of it. She's always very generous with allowing her art to be used for such things and I will always appreciae the beauty she shares with us! Thank you Sara! :)