It's a New Year

{Post: 365/365}

last post of the year

and I am both

proud

and a little sad

I will write more poetry

but not under such a 

demand and pressure

I know that I didn't manage

to write ONE every day

but I DID manage to write

365 poems in a year

and THAT

is an accomplishment

I am proud of myself

they may not all have been good

but they helped me

improve

my thoughts

my expression

my word play

and more

and I am sad

to leave the challenge

behind

and yet

I move on 

to bigger and better things

it is a new year

and a new day

for new challenges

welcome 2013

I look forward to your

challenges

Kindness

{Post: 364/365}

the act

or state of

being kind

a pleasant disposition

and concern for others

a virtue to aspire to

pay it forward

and shine your light

into the world

making it a softer,

gentler

and kinder place

so each other

kindness

I AM...BEAUTIFUL

{Post: 363/365}

I am...

beautiful

not because of 

the package I come in

or the colour of my skin

not because

my eyes are pretty

or the length of my hair

not because I am

or am NOT 

a perfect shape or figure

but because

of my spirit

my heart

my mind

my soul

all that I am

and all that I carry 

within myself

all that I have

to offer to the world

all that I give

all that I believe

all that I share

all that I create

all that I imagine

all that I am

and I am...

BEAUTIFUL

Creation

{Post: 362/365}

resting

and relaxing too much

time to get my mind

under control

and get my focus

onto the work at hand

research

characters

creation

plot lines

and story

time to breath life

and joy

fear and sorrow

hatred and love

into the land 

and its people

time to be author

of my destiny

Sleep All Day!

{Post: 361/365}

feeling like

I've been hit

by a mack truck

phew

Christmas holidays

take a lot out of me

and now

I just want to laze

and sleep

all day!!

Merry Christmas!

{Post: 360/365}

good morning

coffee

small breakfast

excitement

opening stockings

and gifts

showers

getting dressed

gathering up more presents

and food

to bring to mom's

family

fellowship

food

and more gifts

good dinner together

laughter and love

Christmas

Christmas Eve

{Post: 359/365}

joy and

contentment

fills my heart

all my children are home

for Christmas

plus one

there is laughter

and music

there is

hope

there is spirit

and joy

and more

there is comfort

and fun

and I am

grateful

to be sharing it

with them

Jubilant

{Post: 358/365}

exulting

in the expression

of joy

and satisfaction

from the success

and victory

of a win

or triumph

in all aspects

physical

emotional

mental

even

spiritual

and knowing

the value

of your

accomplishment

Joy

{Post: 357/365}

intense

ecstatic

and exultant

happiness

the pleasure

of watching

 children

enjoy each other

playing Guitar Hero

the feeling I got

when given my name

Mojirayo

meaning:

"I awoke to see joy"

I am joyful

and content

Incredible

{Post: 356/365}

someone

or something

amazing

extraordinary

and almost

unbelievable

maybe even

too good to be true

it's incredible

and

fantastic

Inspire

{Post: 355/365}

to affect

to guide

to arouse

by divine influence

to fill

with exalting emotion

to motivate

to elicit

and draw forth

something

to be the cause of

inspiration

creativity

artistry

poetry

imagination

ingenuity

talent or 

vision

Thank You Daddy

sometimes

my heart

is deeply sorrowful

and the missing you

aches inside of me

and I still wish

that you were here

to "get" my

weird sense of humour

to laugh with me at all

every time I smell

Old Spice

I think of you

and every time

I smell leather

so when I found

this little leather braid

play piece

in the lacing container

I wanted to use it

to have a piece of you

with me

the spirit piece

and the memories

are the best ones

but it gives me joy

to have a piece you made

added to it 

a piece that I made

and it reminds me of times

we spent together

making leatherwork

fighting sometimes

laughing sometimes

sharing creativity

and joy

it's a treasure

and a reminder

of your love

thank you

Inspiration

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an idea or 

an influence

causing

a lift in your spirit

and soul

and a surge

of creativity

for words

for art

for music

for anything

that shares

inspiration

creativity

and joy

to others

Hope

{Post: 352/365}

belief

in a positive outcome

for whatever

dreams

choices

and enterprises

are your life hope

a DESIRE

with 

expectation

of fulfillment

belief

that dreams

really do

come true

the act

of setting your eyes

and heart

higher

than knowingly possible

and yet

KNOWING

what will be, will be

Honour

{Post: 351/365}

we honour

a person with

personal integrity

one that follows 

a moral code

with given

respect and regard

it has been

a privilege or pleasure

to share time with them

and we defend

a woman's chastity

or virtue

her honour

with respect

and esteem

Harmony

{Post: 350/365}

musical congruity

a pleasing arrangement

and being in

 beautiful agreement

blended tones

and chords

pleasing to the ear

and

blended minds

and hearts

pleasing to the soul

is

harmony

Honesty

{Post: 349/365}

just a facet

of moral character

that embodies

integrity

truthfulness

positive and virtuous

attributes

valued and revered by many

something we all

should strive for

Working

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working 

towards

goals

and ideas

a story

brought to

life

hope and purpose

built into

worlds

created

to keep me

moving

and working

towards

goals

Making Things Happen

{Post: 347/365}

tired

of being tired

and napping

my life away

will have to 

get busy

working towards

my goals

one step at a time

one day at a time

making things happen

Christmas Cookies

{Post: 346/365}

I just can't help

the visions

of cookies

inside my head

and the 

mouth-watering

taste bud tempting

thoughts 

of

gingersnaps

russian teaballs

shortbread

chocolate hermits

toffee cookie brittle

thumbprint

and sugar cookies

and all the ones

I haven't even tried yet!

Thank You

{Post: 345/365}

thank you

for

reminding me

that I am

loved

that I am

enough

that I CAN

that I am

wonderful

that I am 

beautiful

and that I

deserve

every one

of my dreams

to come true

More

{Post: 344/365]

I don't think

you know

how much 

I hold back

of my intensity

of my intentions

of my emotion

of my love

even within moments

of meeting

for the first time

I don't think

you know

how much

I have to

bite my own tongue

tame the wild beast

that is my heart

hold back my soul

in reserve

even within months

of meeting

and becoming friends

I don't think

you know

how much

MORE

of that intensity

of that depth

of that fire in my heart 

that frightens you

even after 

you DO 

get to know me

there is.

so much MORE.

I Wish You

{Post: 343/365}

I wish you no harm

no ill will

no hatred

no sorrow

no pain

that you can't handle

I wish you no hurt

no damage

no broken hearts

no losses

that you can't rise above

I wish you joy

and friendship

love

companionship

gratitude

understanding

and compassion

for whatever

hurts you DO endure

and above all

I wish you

the power

the wisdom

and the journey

required

to find YOURSELF

I Want to Believe

{Post: 342/365}

I want to believe

that I can

that I am able

and capable

of turning the tide

of my life

I want to believe

that I can

that I am able

and capable

of healing the damage

of my life

I want to believe

that I  can

that I am able

and capable

of changing the attitude

in my mind

I want to believe

that I can

Struggling

{Post: 341/365}

struggling

fighting

trying

failing

falling

crashing

digging a deep hole

sinking into the deep

wallowing in self-pity

a victim

I own my responsibility

and I choose

to climb

and sometimes

I slide back down

falling into the dark

only a glimmer of light

in the distance

and again I climb

and slide

and eventually

I reach the rise

climb out of the deep darkness

and turn my face to the sun

i have risen anew from the ashes

but the journey

has only truly begun

and I will climb and slide

fight and falter

a million times again

before I reach the next rise

and once again 

feel the shine of the sun

tomorrow is another day

to rise anew from the ashes

and though I may get tired

I MUST keep on

fighting

trying

struggling

I am Open

{Post: 340/365}

all I have

is a heart

a mind

and my soul

to give

and I am willing

to offer my all

to share my essence

my spirit

my thoughts

and feelings

my hopes

and dreams

I am willing

to open

and share

whatever I am

with you

Foul as %&#@!

{Post: 339/365}

there are days

when you seem

to wake up

on the wrong side

of the bed

tired and irascible

everything goes from 

bad to bad

and worse to worse

out of anything good to eat

you eat crappy things

and your mood gets worse

until finally 

something positive happens 

to lighten your mood

and you finally eat something 

hoping to get back on track

have a nap to catch up on sleep

and THEN

wake up with an upset tummy

no better an attitude

heartburn

and the knowledge that you need things

and can't afford them

and your mood goes

fouler than foul

so you started out foul as %&#@

and ended up 

NOT even remotely

thinking that is FUNNY

at all!!!!!!!

Sometimes

{Post: 338/365}

sometimes
I don't know
where to find
the faith
the belief
in myself
or in anything else
really
it is not
my nature
to be positive
I am a
melancholy soul
but I try
to find the silver lining
and see the light
and the positive
and keep moving forward
even when it is hard
sometimes

Keep On

{Post: 337/365}

finding a purpose

finding a reason

to fight

to carry on

to move forward

to keep going

to breath

to live

to keep trying

NOT to give up

NOT to lie down and die

is some days

very easy

and some days

nonexistent

and all i can do

is hope that the darkness

will subside again

and the purpose

and the reason

will find another way

to shine

and remind me

to keep on

keeping on

Fun and Functional

{Post: 336/365}

crocheted

with love

it is not quite as good

as the real deal

but the point

is to share

a reminder

of something you love

in combination with

something you can use

and I hope 

it will be 

appreciated

if not as much as the 

edible one

sesame seed bun

hamburger patty

slice of cheese

lettuce

tomato

and red onion

coasters

fun and functional

I Can!

{Post: 335/365}

I love it

when I begin

a challenge

or something new

and I make myself 

sick with worry

and THEN

it turns out just as well

as I expected

or even better

because I AM

capable and talented

and able to handle

ANYTHING

that life can throw at me

I CAN!!

Smile

{Post: 334/365}

after I

get past the

silly nervousness

of talking to you

for the first time

in a long time

I remember

how happy it makes me

I like the sound 

of your voice

your laughter

and I could 

listen to you talking

for hours

because it just 

makes me smile

:) :) happy smiles :) :)

My Gift to You

{Post: 333/365}

it is small

and dainty

but made by my hands

crafted with all the love

in my heart

and given

with the spirit

of hope

that

everytime

you see it again

and hang it on your tree

you will be reminded

that you are

cherished

appreciated

and loved

my gift to you

Tree Lights

{Post: 332/365}

how to express

the feeling

the joy

of tree lights

twinkling

red

blue

yellow

green

orange

shine

reflecting

in the glass

baubles

and ornaments

hanging

from the branches

beautiful angel

lit up inside

topping the tree

handmade love

and gifts

included

it brings me joy

and peace

and the willingness

to work harder

be more tired

and give more

LOVE

Socks

{Post: 331/365}

socks in the 

laundry room

socks on the

floor

rolled up

in piles

in every corner

filling entire

clothes hampers

overflowing

onto the floor

mismatched

full of holes

woolly socks

sport socks

fancy socks too

and I HATE

to manage

this scary

sock affair

but I need

to purge

all the lonely

non-paired socks

to make room

for all the pairs!

Taking a Day

{Post: 330/365}

taking a day

to decompress

from all the stress

and pressure

I put on myself

no crafts

no writing

(except for this poem)

no cleaning

no research

no work

(except the dishes)

(and laundry)

but instead

some chats

some fun 

conversations

and bits of time

with friends

made my heart lighter

and recharged

my drive

to get everything done

Colours of Christmas

{Post: 329/365}

breathing in

the colours

and emotions

of Christmas

tree shining

and twinkling

with lights

in blue, red, yellow, orange and green

and shiny

ball ornaments

in purple, silver, red and blue

catching the lights

glass icicles and angels

sparkling in the branches

santas, balls, bells

and cute little critters

in all the vibrant colours

adorn the Christmas tree

and my heart

is full of all the

peace, love and hope

of the season

I LOVE it!

Embrace the Changes

{Post: 328/365}

getting down to

the wire

coming to the end

but it is also

a beginning

to the next bend

in the road

the next project

every closed door behind

leads to an open door

forward

all that is left

is the willingness

and ability

to walk through it

and embrace

new challenges

embrace the changes

Chaos

{Post: 327/365}

too much to do

swirling in my head

causing chaos

and stress

only a moment away

crochet gifts

decorate

sort financials

publish and post

my queen book

for sale

(with official ISBN)

do more research

mapping and planning

for my new book project

and get ready for 

annual

Christmas Dinner party

and even more than this

is on the list

swirling in my head

causing chaos

this is just my life

too many balls in the air

I have HOPE

{Post: 326/365}

days full of stress

worry

visits to Drs.

social worker

and case worker

and eventually

the job is done

sent in the mail

and out of my hands

it is out in the universe

and I have hope

for better days 

around the corner

I have HOPE

Excited

{Post: 325/365}

excited

and can't wait

to put up my tree

it is almost here

my favourite

time of year

and this year

I'll hug my

baby girl

for the first time

in years

excited

and waiting

to finish

the presents

wrap them

and set them

under the tree

shiny new ornaments

twinkling lights

and a new kitten

experiencing

his first

Christmas tree

excited

Learning

{Post: 324/365}

I am learning

to work within

the confines

of the life

that I am in

I am learning

to make peace

with the 

journey

I am learning 

to find

the strength

to face

every new day

I am learning

to believe

in myself

and I am learning

not to sweat 

the small stuff

Crocheting for Christmas

{Post: 323/365}

I am crocheting

gifts for Christmas

and as I crochet

I remember

the grandmother

who taught me to

crochet flowers

somewhere

locked away in a bin

is the bedspread she made me

crocheted by hand

made with love

all the more special

because I understood the WORK

she put into it

and somewhere a pillow

made by my own hand

to match

but more

the gift...

the GIFT

of not only a skill I could master

but a talent I could cherish

and for you, grandma

I am grateful

then I also remember

the other grandmother

my nanny

who always made us

socks and mittens

for Christmas

even while the arthritis

in her hands

made it difficult

and before she had to stop

she would knit

and I never could figure out how

to knit

but my mother knows

 I am struck

by the passage of time

and the loss 

of so much

and I wish

that my daughter

wanted to learn

to crochet

but maybe

just maybe

I will be the grandma

who teaches her own

grand daughter

to crochet flowers

or toys

or something else

I HOPE

Sleep and Dream

{Post: 322/365}

restless sleep

riddled with dreams

strangeness

fighting

crochet

passion and pain

obvious stress

and worry

keeping my dream life

full and busy

and my sleep

from being complete

hot flashes

potty breaks

thirsty for water

cats causing ruckus

crashing and banging

waking me out of a dead sleep

and causing my nerve ends

to jangle

hope for better

and restful sleep

tonight

Getting Ready

{Post: 321/365}

isn't it funny

having something

even a small thing

to give to my family

my children

my friends

even if just a beginning

settles my spirit

eases my mind

slows the beating 

of my heart

and brings

my soul peace

i may not be finished yet

but i have definitely

begun!

it may not be perfect

but I will be ready

for Christmas

Stay in Bed

{Post: 320/365}

I want to stay

cozy

curled up in my bed

warm

and safe

comfortable

dreaming 

sleeping

reading

cuddling a kitty

or a hubby ;)

lol

but

life awaits

so I begin anew

The Day

{Post: 319/365}

it's a new day

closer and closer

to THE day

the day when 

all my work

all my effort

all my blood, sweat and tears

will PAY

will mean something

if only

that I finished

what I started

and it was

BIG

Raina

{Post: 318/365}

she is much

that she can't even see

there is power

in every fiber

of her being

there is compassion

love

hope

wisdom

courage

and so much more

she is only beginning

to scratch the surface

of her heart

of her mind

of her soul

of the power

inside of her

she is the hope of her world

and it's destiny

she is it's protector

it's angel

it's guardian

she is not the first

will likely not be the last

and even when she fears

what she must do

she will find her way

she will be 

the wise guardian 

of the way

and that is only 

one small part of

Raina

Characters

{Post: 317/365}

you would think 

it would be easier

to name them

to find the titles

to find the 

"labels"

if you will

that only begin

to let you know

who they are

to invest

meaning

emotion

connection

a story

a person

into the letters

that give voice

to their spirit

for they do have a spirit

a vibe

a being

inside the creation

and I want to do them justice

Striving to Be ME

{Post: 316/365}

is she me?

is she a

new version

a different

idea

all the dreams

and wishes

hopes and

desires

that I carry

in the deep

places

inside me

is she me?

of course she is

she is 

the hope

the dream

the best parts

of myself

she is

only some parts

of who I

strive to be

writing her

I honour ME

Obsessive

{Post:315/365}

why

must I

sink so deep

into the story

into the process

that I forget

to eat

to drink

and I get irritated

by the time it takes

to do that

and to have a 

potty break

or to have a wee break

why must I

be so obsessive

tenacious

like a dog with  a bone

who won't let go

until he is done

but

it is NEVER

done!!

Set Myself Free

{Post: 314/365}

behind again!

my only excuse

is being busy

and distracted

by a whole new world

the characters

the story

the reasons why

their names

their back stories

and what is it

they are trying to say?

these are new characters

to me

but I have known many

through the years

and always been

reticent

about telling their stories

perhaps

it is just time

to set them

and myself

free

Kitten

{Post: 313/365}

psssssst

pffffff

grrrrrrrr

uggggghhh

baaaaahhhhhh

tzzzzzzzz

grrrrrrrrrr

you brat!

behave!

quit beating up the big girls

quit climbing up my furniture

stop biting on those cords

Good God

little fuzz!

I forgot how aggravating

such an adorable

and sweet little

HELLION kitten 

can be!!!!!!

Spirit and Intention

{Post: 312/365}

renewed spirit

and intention

for my dietary needs

I will attack it

till I kill it

and it will NOT

kill me

I will find the best

balance

I will find the right

combinations

and I will

get my attitude

in line with my needs

until I have

created

the easiest and best path

for me

Good Intentions

{Post: 311/365}

trying to

make a plan

and stick with it

follow my diet

don't eat the bad stuff

balance the good stuff

and stay on track

and as healthy as I can

but sometimes

life

blocks me and my

good intentions

Crunch and Munch

{Post: 310/365}

hungry for days

and now

all I can do

is crunch

and munch

and feed

the voracious

appetite

empty belly

bred

while it waited

for yummies

Apples

{Post: 309/365}

crunchy and crisp

juicy and sweet

baked in a pie

or with brown sugar,

nuts and raisins

wrapped up into

a pastry dumpling

and covered with

sweet sauce

but mostly

covered in chocolate

and also caramel

 one of my absolutely 

favourite treats

sliced or diced into a salad

or taken in hand

so many choices

and different flavours

of apples

Down

{Post: 308/365}

down

and depressed

feeling the bluest

of the blue

dreading

freaking out

worrying

stressing myself out

trying not to

lay down and die

and give up

long before it is time

i have to climb up

again

climb out 

of the troubles I'm in

and find the strength

find the faith

to continue

Don't Know

{Post: 307/365}

I

don't know

whether to

write

paint

make jewelry

draw

watch tv

play games

read a book

do some research

question my own self

or just go with the flow

of ME

and just BE

ME

Change of Perspective

{Post: 306/365}

purple sunshine

blue leaves

green skies

yellow bushes

orange rivers

red tree trunks

flip the vision

of the world you see

on its head

and create

whatever you want to see

sometimes a change

of perspective

is fun!

Halloween

{Post: 305/365}

ghosts and ghouls

vampires

and frankenstein

monsters

trick or treat

bags of candies

parties

dress up

bobbing for apples

haunted houses

spooky soundtracks

smoke and mirrors

blood and gore

slasher movies

psycho killers

horror and more

these are the things

Halloween

brings to my mind

Happy Halloween all!

Stay safe!

My HOPE

{Post: 304/365}

I found this poem in one of my stacks of papers. I don't remember when I wrote it but I would like to share it now.

once upon a moment

I carried a dream

in my womb

he touched my heart

for only a moment

but I have not

forgotten

I will never forget

he wasn't mine to keep

but he was, IS

and always will be

a cherished moment

of HOPE

Naptime

{Post: 302/365}

cuddling

with Boo 

the sleepy kitty

reminds me

that I am sleepy also

and I would enjoy

a nap

Angel LOVE

{Post: 302/365}

when I create

an angel for you

whether it is a pendant

on a chain

an ornament

for your Christmas tree

or just a token of love

for your pocket

I am thinking of YOU

I am thinking of

your favourite colour

whether or not

you believe in angels

of how deeply

connected we are

how much love I have for you

how huge my wish for 

love and peace

and angel protection

is for you

and that my creation

will be filled

with all that emotion

and love

and every time

you wear it

or see it

or touch it

you will think of me

and know

LOVE

Handmade Gifts

{Post: 301/365}

the countdown

has begun

I have no time

so TODAY

is making a plan

for Christmas

day!

bust out

the creative bomb

and MAKE

some pretty

and useful

gifts

for my friends

and family

and hope

that it really is true

handmade gifts

are better

because they are

made with love

and a portion of my time

I AM thinking of YOU 

when I choose

a pattern

an idea

a statement

and every time

I also give 

a piece of myself

and the flow of my love

Restless

{Post: 300}
(OMG! Only 65 posts left and we're onto another 365 days!! WooHoo!!! I've posted 300 poems!!!)

I do not

know what to do

with myself

I don't know

which way to turn

or what to do next

so many things

rise to the surface

so many ideas

brimming

so many thoughts

doubts, fears

so many choices

and I can't decide

which is the WAY

which way to go

which idea to

energize

I am just

restless

Complacent

{Post: 299/365}

I don't know

what to do

about this

and that

and the other thing

it is easy to say

change your life

and some say

also

easy to do

but I can't see how

what the what

there are only some things 

that I CAN do

and sometimes

I honestly

don't WANT to

I don't hate my life

maybe I've just

been stuck 

in the same place

for so long that 

I can't see the path

maybe I am

complacent

Waiting

{Post: 298/365}

waiting

and being patient

is not my 

strong suit

it leaves me

too much time

to let my mind

wander

and suppose

and come up with

all the horrible

things that could 

go wrong

be time already!!

Halloween Party

{Post: 297/365}

it's almost time

to dress up

in costume

whether goofy,

frightening and creepy

or just plain cute

and have the 

best costume contest

at our annual party

and guess the number

of Halloween candies

gift pail

time to drink

listen to "Halloween" music

my fave always:

The Hall of the Mountain King

and eat disgustingly

creepy treats

like:

Bloody Bug Juice

Creepy Mummy Dogs

Roasted Alien Fingers

Caterpillar Kebobs

Puking Pumpkin Dip

Rat Cheese Spread

and

enjoying

laughter, food and fun

with our friends

I can't wait!

Angel With An Edge

{Post: 296/365}

when I began

I could hardly believe

the possibility

or the existence of

earth angels

which are simply

people with

deep love and compassion

who bring light

and healing

to others

throughout their lives

friends often tell them

"you're an angel"

but of course

we don't really believe that

even if we are flattered

and sometimes even frustrated by it

but I have learned

to embrace

the truths and the lessons

I have begun to understand

it has made clear

many things about myself

that felt so different

and I am still

but now

I'm not afraid to be ME

I'm not afraid to love

I CAN and DO

shine a light into the darkness

for many

encourage and support

and even inspire

and I AM human

so I am NOT pristinely pure

but I AM

an angel

maybe just...

an angel with an edge

I Want to Share

{Post: 295/365}

what is the truth

of healing

dare I hope

for an ending

far different

than the one 

I expect

is there another path

is there another choice

or is this it

the journey I must take

the lessons I will learn

the pain I will endure

the fear I will face

the time I may waste

or do I just 

use as much of this time

as I can

to leave something behind

to share what I have learned

to build a bridge for those

who follow behind

and share my fate

share my journey

I don't know the answers

to many of the questions

but I want to share

whatever I can

while I can

I Embrace Chaos

{Post: 294/365}

I am learning

various things

about myself

many of the things

I am NOT

as well as 

many things

that I AM

one thing 

I have learned

is that I

am very poor

at following

a schedule

I am afraid

that I embrace

chaos

even though

it also drives me

insane

I have learned

that no matter 

how hard I try

I cannot stand

to do the same thing

to wear the same thing

to eat the same thing

day in 

and day out

I MUST

have variety

I MUST

have differences

of taste and flavour

of ideas and opinions

of colours and greys

and that my mind

cannot be bored

by the same dreary story

every day

but needs engagement

with something

NEW and BRIGHT

and diverse

and this is how I GROW

I Will Fight

{Post: 293/365}

what will 

tomorrow bring

but more

stress, worry

and fear

I don't believe

I am strong enough

not to fear

not to doubt

not to wail and moan

and cry in misery

and sorrow

for my plight

and yet I know

that I will take a breath

and another

and I will

survive

each moment

as I am faced with them

I know

that I will fight

in the ways that I know

in the ways that I have

and I may yet learn

new ways as well

i will learn

not to worry the tomorrows

but to cherish

TODAY

and to follow the path

wherever it may lead

trusting the journey

trusting that I will be cared for

in ways I can't even imagine yet

not only will I LEARN

but I will leave bridges behind me

Balance

{Post: 292/365}

looking for

balance

in my life

between

needed exercise

my health

a restricted 

and boring diet

and time

to do the things 

i want to do

to read

to write

to travel

to meet 

and spend time 

with friends

I keep trying

to find

the perfect balance

I Want to Fight

{Post: 291/365}

today

I want to fight

I want to

be strong

have faith

move forward

and 

embrace change

but 

sometimes

I still get

swallowed

in the darkness

of my life

depression

sorrow

no hope

I need

inspiration

I need 

encouragement

too

but not today

today

I want to

FIGHT

Finding the Way

{Post: 290/365}

finding

my path

finding 

the next bend

in the road

learning

to face it

and embrace it

instead of

freaking out

running for the hills

hiding from the truth

owning my space

sharing my voice

shining my light

growing

into my soul

The Best Poem

{Post: 289/365}

sometimes

the best poem

flows in words

like water

unbidden

no knowledge

beforehand

of the language

or feelings 

to be expressed

it requests

to be written

or spoken

and then it is

what was before

just a fleeting

moment

or the flicker of an

idea

becomes

a soft spoken whisper

of poetry

and a soul message

Deeper Levels

{Post: 288/365}

there are places

inside me

I don't want

to see

to know

to understand

and yet

new doors

open inside me

constantly

sometimes I close them

immediately

and sometimes

I stand looking

into the abyss

not ready to enter

and still other times

I know

that deep inside myself

is only myself

I will not destroy

me

I will only find

a deeper level

another facet

MORE

of myself

sometime soon

I will embrace

my own deeper levels

and then I will come into ME

and I will BE