50 Day Things Girls SHOULD Do Challenge: Post #9

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Girls SHOULD...

DATE SOMEONE OLDER

Dating in your age group can be common ground but, dating someone older can open a world of possibilities to you that you may not have seen before.

The level of growth and sophistication of your partner can challenge you to changes and growth of your own! Of course there is the possibility that they won't seem that much older than you anyway because men often still have that boyish spirit inside them but, it's worth the experience to learn a few things about life and about yourself.

50 Day Things Girls SHOULD Do Challenge: Post #8

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Girls SHOULD...

STAND UP FOR YOURSELF

It is important to know your own value and not allow other people to take advantage of you or use or abuse you in any way for their own agendas or gain.

Don't accept being belittled or disrespected.

Stand UP for yourself and be heard!

50 Day Things Girls SHOULD Do Challenge: Post #7

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Girls SHOULD...
FALL IN LOVE.
More than once. You will then recognize that it WILL happen more than once in your life!
Everyone hopes for the ONE and if you find them you are very lucky.
However, it is good to understand and be open to the POSSIBILITIES in life.
Fall in love. Enjoy it! If it isn't right...move on!
There are many paths and ways of love.

50 Day Things Girls SHOULD Do Challenge: Post #6

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Girls SHOULD...
TAKE A RISK.
Say hello to that boy you always see and smile at but, are afraid to talk to.
Apply for that job you think you can't get...you might be surprised!
Start something new that you've been afraid to do before.
Challenge yourself!
If you are not willing to take the risk, you will never receive the reward!

50 Day Things Girls SHOULD Do Challenge: Post #5

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Girls SHOULD...
DO SOMETHING DRASTIC WITH YOUR HAIR.
Get a hair cut if you haven't had one in a long time. Change the style of your cut.
Colour your hair. Colour your hair a funky, fun colour!
Liberate yourself from the same old boring every day you.
It will remind you that you have choices!!

50 Day Things Girls SHOULD Do Challenge: Post #4

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Girls SHOULD...
LEARN TO DRIVE.
Especially if you are a quiet, shy, reserved person. Learning to drive is a HUGE confidence booster.
It CAN be scary and therefore doing it can show you that you ARE quite capable of doing BIG, SCARY things all by yourself! The independence and freedom of having a car and the ability to go where you want is HUGE! Not to mention it makes it possible to take a road trip with the girls! ;)

50 Day Things Girls SHOULD Do Challenge: Post #3

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Girls SHOULD...
TAKE TIME FOR YOURSELF.
None of us can function properly and happily if we are run down and exhausted. It is important to take time for yourself to replenish your spirit and recharge.
For some of us this can be a few minutes each day to do something for yourself in quiet and solitude.
For others a bigger chunk of time may be necessary.
Some of us can even plan to take a whole day once a week or once a month.
It doesn't matter when or how you do it, just that you DO.

50 Day Things Girls SHOULD Do Challenge: Post #2

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Girls SHOULD...
LEARN TO SAY NO.
Many of us will want to be helpful and accommodating to our friends so much that we will not say no when we should and will accept too much to be able to function and contribute at our best.
You should never feel guilty for saying NO and taking the time you need to keep yourself strong, healthy and balanced.

50 Day Things Girls SHOULD Do Challenge: Post #1

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Girls should...
LIVE ALONE.
Every girl should leave home and live in an apartment by herself for at least a year.
In this way she will taste freedom and independence and enjoy doing whatever she wants to do without fear of upsetting a status quo of people she is living with.
She will then KNOW when she does live with another person which things are negotiable and which things she really needs to feel whole and well-balanced as an individual.
She will know and understand the necessity of her own silence sometimes.
She will understand and have compassion for other people's loneliness because she will have felt it at times herself.
She will learn that she can BE self sufficient and doesn't NEED another person to be with her daily in order to survive, or even enjoy her life.
She will appreciate time with friends in comparison to time alone with herself and will also appreciate time alone with herself in comparison to time with her friends.
She will KNOW that she is capable of many more things than she would if she never lived alone and had to take care of herself by herself!

RECOGNIZE

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Definition: recognize


Synonyms

acknowledge
realize
appreciate
accept
honour
treasure
value
notice
know
understand
approve
respect
SEE

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I would like to suggest standing in front of the mirror and looking into the person you see.
Think of each of these words in this list and ask yourself if you can use all of them to express recognition of the person in the mirror.
Do you see yourself truly?
Do you acknowledge the spirit within?
Do you realize and appreciate who you really are inside?
Do you accept the soul looking out through your eyes?
Do you honour your inner voice?
Do you treasure the gifts and talents that you possess? Are you aware of them?
Do you value yourself? Do you value your own heart and wisdom?
Do you notice a quiet voice of dignity inside you? Do you hear your own voice?
Do you know yourself? Do you know what is underneath the surface?
Do you understand who you are and that what you do or choose is a reflection of deeper fears, vices, beliefs and perceived limitations?
Do you approve of what you see or do you try to change it, squash it, erase it because you think it is not good enough?
DO YOU respect the beautiful creation GOD created when he made you?
Do you SEE your truth? OR do you only see the mask you built and lies you told everyone including yourself to cover up whatever fears, inadequacies and limitations you suffer from?
I suggest you keep looking until you FIND the truth, know and RECOGNIZE the beauty in you and BRING IT TO THE LIGHT!
We are ALL beautiful, intelligent, capable, VIBRANT people with abilities, talents, gifts, ideas, hopes, dreams and beliefs. The sky is NOT the limit...there IS no limit to what we can do.
We only have to SEE, CHOOSE, BELIEVE and then FLY as high as we want to!
Sometimes it is hard to face our own flaws and imperfections and we think that because of them we deserve to be punished or we deserve everything bad that happens to us.
This is FALSE!
EVERYONE has flaws, imperfections, parts they don't like, things they can't change.
It IS ok. Learn to accept yourself as is and change the things you CAN change.
Be open to the POSSIBILITY that everything CAN and does change, that everything has a purpose. Be willing to grow and learn even when you think you can't and when the time for change comes you will be ready to embrace it and move forward. BUT, don't beat yourself up or punish yourself if some things can't be changed because you're not ready or because of circumstances beyond your control. JUST learn to go along with the flow of your life and things will happen as they should. Learn to cherish and believe in the person YOU are!
LEARN to recognize, accept and love yourself JUST AS YOU ARE!!

I ACCEPT Myself

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No person in this life is perfect.
No matter how ANYONE else looks to you they have FLAWS and imperfections just like any of us do. Sometimes it is difficult to see your own, recognize that they are JUST flaws and imperfections and accept yourself as you are. It is GOOD to strive to be better and grow and learn new things and improve upon oneself but, when these faults and flaws become something that you wish to beat yourself over the head with daily then you are NOT accepting yourself.
Everyone makes mistakes. It is how we learn!
I admit, some of us do make doozies! It's really not the end of the world though.
Pick yourself up, correct your mistakes as best you can, apologize for them if they have hurt anyone and move on! Don't hang onto all the negatives...feelings, recriminations, guilt. Don't punish yourself for having had the courage to try something new or different than your normal even if it didn't work out the way you wanted it to!
At least you had the courage to TRY!
So many people never even do that much!
It has taken me a long time to accept myself as I am. To accept the package that I come in, the experiences which have made me who I am, the mistakes and even the successes.
I have spent a long time wallowing in self pity and guilt for many stupid decisions I made in the past...but, that's the thing...it is in the PAST. It is OVER, DONE, can't be changed, can't be taken back, is in large part a huge part of who I am now because of the many things I learned about life, about other people and about myself but, carrying it along with me keeps me stuck in the quagmire of guilt and recriminations. That is SO unnecessary!
Shake it off! Shake off the old and make every day and every new thing NEW and REAL and NOW. Embrace it, be open to it, learn from it, GROW.
Accept yourself as the beautiful, vibrant, capable, intelligent human being that you are.
Accept that sometimes you are less than you could be and just continue striving to be better.
Don't try to be better than everyone else, just try to be a better you than you were yesterday!
EVERY DAY is a NEW day! ;)

Happy Father's Day

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I wrote this poem for my friend, my muse who has a harder time than most father's and I wanted him to know that SOMEONE knows and appreciates his struggles.

A Father's LOVE

He is missing

All the things

We take for granted

Every day.

Kisses on the cheek

A small hand placed in his

I love you daddy!

Snuggles in the bed in early morning.

All the hugs and cuddles

That make life with children

A life of JOY

He is far away from them

Enduring heartache

Every day

While he tries to make a living

Tries to make their lives better

Their future brighter

His choice is one

Of deep love and commitment

He has unbelievable faith

That such separation will be worth it

In the end

He hopes his children

Will one day

Truly understand

The sacrifice he has made

The love he has for them

That leaving them behind

For any length of time

Is not his first choice

Nor really any choice at all

But something he must do

To provide a better life for them

I applaud his strength

To make the only choice he can

To endure the ache

To work as hard as he can

To hope for some miracle

To have faith in himself

To know that someday

Everything he is doing

For his children, for his family

Will be understood and appreciated.

For those of you who have your father with you, remember once in awhile to show him appreciation for who he is and what he does with you and for you because some children have to endure long separations from theirs and it's not easy to miss your dad when he's gone.

Tattoo I Get NEXT Hopefully...

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I love this phoenix tattoo and I want it in the colours in the pic.

I love the purples and oranges.

It symbolizes a new beginning inside myself that came about when I met my muse. 

He helped me see some things properly and heal some parts of me that had long been broken.

I want this on my back and it's going to be bigger than any I've had as of yet,

therefore it will also be more expensive...

so I am saving NOW and hopefully

will get it for my birthday! :)

New Challenge

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Well, the thing I have been dreading has finally happened. 
I will be starting to take insulin as soon as I can make an appt with the Dr. and get him to write my prescription for the pen. :( 
I am also showing at 27 and in Stage 4 which disturbs me a little. No matter how much I wish it, it seems there is no stopping the progression of the disease. It is slowly going down hill. For the longest time I was right on the line between Stage 3 and Stage 4 and I was hopeful I could stay there a long time. 
It is difficult to do all the things I have to do. Eat right, exercise, be positive, keep trying, keep moving forward, not give up, not give in. 
Don't drink. 
Don't do this, don't do that. Bahhhhhhhhhhhh! 
Maybe one good thing is it will be a 24 hour insulin so I will only have to inject myself once a day. I hope it helps. 
I'm feeling sad today. :(

June 16, 2011

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Happy Birthday Dad!
     I miss you so much. Your grandchildren are grown ups now and maybe I understand your stress and worry for me better now. It doesn't matter that they are grown and out in the world, I am still concerned that they are doing ok, following their own hearts, finding joy and contentment with their work and relationships and LIFE. The youngest one is also someone you would have loved so much! I am sad and sorry that you never got to know him but, even more so that he has never known YOU.
Sometimes life has such great sadness.
I am still trying to find my way through MANY challenges and come out on top.
I'm trying to learn to "Don't worry,be happy!" I know what you meant now.
I know there are many things I wish I had asked you, I wish I had known about you but, it is gone now and too late to get back. I am grateful for the things  did know and the time I did have.
Thank you for being a father I could be proud of.
More importantly for being a MAN I could be proud of and one to measure all other men by.
You were good, strong, compassionate, brave, honest and loving and I appreciate the things I have learned and the person I have become because of you.
Thank you dad for being you and being MINE.
I love you always and miss you so much! xo

Spine Poem

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(Poem Form: Spine Poem: Where the Wild Things Are)

Where are you now?

the question sits unspoken on my lips

wild thoughts run through my head

things that I thought no longer mattered

are waiting to be answered...again

Poem Form: Who Am I?

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My real name is HOPE
Yesterday my name was mom of funny boys
Today my name is tired, stressed and fighting a killer headache
Tomorrow my name will be movie watching mother-in-law (not really...YET!) lol
In my dreams my name is confidence.

30 Day Facebook Challenge-Post #30

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Pic of someone I miss...
every day there is some issue in my life that would be easier to handle if you were still here with me to encourage and support and listen...and even to fight and argue and be irritated by my stupid choices lol
I miss you very much dad xo wish you were still here
even tho I hear your voice in my head it would be really sweet to hear it again for real! xo

30 Day Facebook Challenge-Post #29

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A pic that ALWAYS makes me smile: marzipan babies...

real babies also make me smile!! :D

check out more of the candy babies: http://www.camilleallen.com/index.htm

30 Day Facebook Challenge-Post #28

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Something I am AFRAID of...

30 Day Facebook Challenge-Post #27

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Me & A Family Member...

My BABY!! :)

A pic of ME and my angel baby boy Gib :D
This was taken the day we took a hike down the Wilson's Falls Trail...it was a great day but man I was tuckered out at the end of it!! :op

30 Day Facebook Challenge-Post #26

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Pic of LAST YEAR & NOW

Last year and now...how have I changed?
duh...obviously my hair colour!! lmao

Hmmm...I have learned so many things over the course of a year and the biggest is that wallowing in self pity has no point but to allow you to make excuses for why you're not doing SOMETHING to make whatever it is better...
think positive...take out the good things from every lesson and throw away the bad...it can't help you move forward...it can only keep you down...maybe you can't change EVERYTHING about your situation...maybe you can't DO very much...maybe you're STUCK...but if you work hard tt CHANGE YOUR ATTITUDE and think positive it can get better a lot faster!!!!

30 Day Facebook Challenge-Post #25

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My Day...

A big part of my days have been spent hangin out with Melli 

so why not a pic of us doing just that? lol
She moved to the other side of town tho and it's too far for me to walk!!!!

30 Day Facebook Challenge-Post #24

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Something I wish I could CHANGE...

I wish wishing could change all the people in the world who deal with their troubles with violence.
HITTING does NOT solve issues but rather complicates, damages and breeds more issues.
Not to mention the damaging soul scars it leaves behind. :(

30 Day Facebook Challenge-Post #23

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Fave BOOK:

Seriously I have MANY favourite books so it's hard to pick just one...I enjoy all the books written by Terry Brooks...he's one of my fave authors...but this one is my FAVE...it was a story that drew me in right from the beginning...and I named my daughter after the main character...Amberle....if you like fantasy stories I say def read the whole series but it's ok if you read them out of sequence because each of the books is a story from a different generation and can stand by itself.
I just LOVE the characters written by Terry Brooks!!

Another reason this one is special to me is that my dad bought my copy of it for me for xmas one year. It was the only thing I really wanted cause I couldn't afford to buy it myself then and I asked mom for it...I was very naughty that year because I snooped under the xmas tree and as soon as I found the package I knew it was my book! So I opened the end and rewrapped it to check and of course it was my book...but my dad had written a little note on the inside and it made me really really happy! (I never snooped again like that after that time...because I figured out that giving me what I wanted so much made my dad just as happy as me getting what I wanted!! and snooping wasn't fair to him :( tho I didn't have to pretend I was excited lol)

30 Day Facebook Challenge-Post #22

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Something I wish I was Better at...

I WISH I was better at cleaning...but I am NOT a clean freak and I'm never gonna be...I accept myself and my flaws...maybe you should too...I sure would and WILL enjoy the future time in my life when there is NO need for toys to multiply in every corner of every room in my house!

30 Day Facebook Challenge-Post #21

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Someone You See Yourself marrying...

We have been together now 15 years, married 13 and 

I couldn't see myself married to anyone else!

Love you sweetness xo always! :)

30 Day Facebook Challenge-Post #20

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Somewhere I would like to travel...

ITALY!

(maybe to visit my friend Gian) :)

30 Day Facebook Challenge-Post #19

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First 10 Ipod (or Mp3 or playlist) Songs Shuffled

Shuffle IPOD and list first 10 songs that play randomly:
(I don't have an ipod so I used my media player)
Crying in the Rain-Whitesnake
Rockstar-Nickleback
Last Goodbye-Kenny Wayne Shepherd
Love is My Religion-Ziggy Marley
Jessie's Girl-Rick Springfield
You & I Both-Jason Mraz
Don't Talk to Strangers-Rick Springfield
Smash Riddim-Turbulence
Is This Freedom-Lucky Dube
Holy Diver-Dio

some very good tunes ;)

30 Day Facebook Challenge-Post #18

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Nicknames I have and WHY:

Donald, Donald Duck, Donald Quack Quack, or Quack: All variations of Donald Duck which ANYONE who is named Dawn (or Don) probably got called at some point or another!! ;) 

Denise and Scott both still call me Donald sometimes...

Devil Woman: hubby calls me from the movie quote: "Don't tell me my business Devil Woman!!"

Lady Evil: Shawn says...she's not Devil Woman, she's Lady Evil 

(from the song-Black Sabbath)...because I am so NOT evil??? lol

Judas Priestess: another from Shawn 

...if you want to know the why maybe ask him to tell you...lol

HonBun: is hubby's name for me and it's short for Honey Bunny...

even cuter is Gibby when he was a baby calling me MomBun lmao :)

and some of my friends just call me D...

apparently it is possible to shorten the short name of Dawn by just using my first initial!! 

who knew?? lol (I like it!) :)